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Date: Sun Jul 25 02:44 Carol (carol@fantoo.com): Dragonflies everywhere, flying so fast in this heat. One zooms past Max's head and he says, "Mommy, there goes Josh!" Kids. Makes me think of underwater goggles...miss you, love you, thank you. Date: Mon Jul 12 04:30 Laura Clayton Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): The L.A. Times put a nice piece about Josh in the Calendar section today...it was a surprise to me! http://www.latimes.com/entertainment/news/la-ca-0711-overunder-20100711,0,7953964.story Thanks for all the great notes from the people who've downloaded the live record, and from all of you. Josh's sister, Laura Date: Sat Jul 10 20:13 Scott (roofdweller@live.com): Didn't know Josh had passed away. I've owned that first School of Fish CD since it first came out. The whole CD is great. Just wanted to say that I often listened to School of Fish throughout the last 19 years and it is one of the few albums that I have done that with. Thanks for the music Josh, you really had gift. Peace. Date: Thu Jul 8 10:39 connor (lol.co.uk): shut up dan go lick cows Date: Thu Jul 8 10:38 daniel (daniel.russell@hotmail.co.uk): connor ure gay Date: Thu Jul 8 10:36 connor (hello@hotmail.org): hi guys Date: Thu May 20 13:37 Bridgette (bridgie@me.com): Happy Birthday, Josh. A dragonfly has been hanging around me in the garden lately. Makes me smile. You're still shining. Date: Thu May 20 03:10 Bridgette (bridgie@me.com): Happy Birthday, Josh. A dragonfly has been hanging around me in the garden lately. Makes me smile. You're still shining. Date: Wed May 19 17:21 Shay G. (wavecowboy67@sbcglobal.net): Happy Birthday my man! Thinking of you on this very special day! Lot's of love to you, Shay G. Date: Tue May 18 20:57 notre (nostarwhere@hotmail.com): I am speechless to hear Josh passed away 10 years ago - SHOCK!!! I was listened the whole CD driving home yesterday and kept Speechless song on repeat. Today I read the post - Cant believe it been 20 years passed since I first heard of School of Fish. The early 90's rocked!!! RIP Josh! Thanks for the music and good luck with all the remain members of the band. Date: Tue May 18 15:52 Laura Clayton Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): Happy Birthday Josh! I've been focused lately on your quote about "Life is the experience of creating experience". So important to remember that. I love you. I miss you always. But I have you here inside too. Laura Date: Tue May 18 15:24 Keiko (cake9500@msn.com): Happy Birthday to you. We are looking forward to seeing you again in "Lightsong" May your soul rest in peace. WE LOVE YOU Date: Tue May 18 03:39 Tommy Manzi (thomasmanzi@mac.com): Hi Josh. Long days, of late. Thinking of you, always. The world outside is red But my room is blue And it will keep me save But I don't know from who Happy Birthday JCF. Date: Mon May 3 17:51 James (demosthenes_alive@yhaoo.com): I gotta say, "Three Strange Days" changed my life. ROFL Not always for the better, but certainly for the entertaining, man! Thanks for it. Be well, wherever you are... Date: Wed Apr 28 08:16 Dan O (d_ozmatlan@hotmail.com): Hey there, spirit world brother- not amazed on how you still help in this world, though still remember "Too Cool For This World" at your passing ceremony. How could I not forget- we buried you on my birthday. You still help so many to this day, the community you created before your departure. I wasn't your closest confidant but when we spoke, the words always meant so much...miss you brother and blessings to your sister, Laura, Wolf, and all our relations...it's hard to be here but as they say, it ain't over till it's over... Date: Fri Apr 23 19:56 David (DailyHappenstance@Gmail.com): I wrote a piece about Josh, mentioned below by Steve. I saw Josh in 1996 and I do my best to tell his story at dailyhappenstance.com. Please post a comment there if you like and, please, if anything there is inaccurate, let me know. Miss Josh's music very much, David Date: Fri Apr 23 00:29 steve (nwmedtrans@aol.com): http://www.dailyhappenstance.com/ Date: Sat Apr 3 06:37 john campbell (jwcbell@gmail.com): Ha! I just watched Richard Feynman talking about his love of life and "it's" wonderful mystery! I can't help but think of you and your love of life and your deep peace with mystery!... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1qQQXTMih1A&feature=related I can imagine you smiling at Richard's antics - and his friendship! Date: Thu Apr 1 04:03 Julie and Crew (JulieA388@aol.com): Just checking in. Miss you, Josh. Don't ever go too far. Date: Mon Mar 8 01:26 john campbell (jwcbell@gmail.com): you still inspire love (perhaps your greatest legacy!)- and i still miss you! Date: Wed Feb 24 15:17 Chris Cameron (chrisc@pwny.com): Josh, You are missed very dearly by a fan you never met. I saw you open for Tori Amos and almost left after you played because my heart was filled and felt no need to see anymore. I ran out and bought your Inarticulate Nature Boy record and fell in love with it. I'm listening to it now with sadness. I'm sure you are making heaven a place worth going to. Peace. All the warmest wishes to your family. Date: Wed Feb 3 15:45 Tommy Manzi (thomasmanzi@mac.com): I have been traveling abroad over the past few weeks and any kind of reliable Internet connection proved to be fleeting for the most part. And so I arrive here late but thinking of you as always, and especially at this ten year remembrance. I wanted so much to be in Los Angeles for the gathering of family & friends... but it seems each January that I end up on the road elsewhere, a long distance away. Time has passed, at a surprisingly swift rate... and yet your spirit, purpose and impact are so very real and lasting to us - always. We miss you. Much love to everyone. Date: Mon Jan 25 03:20 Laura Clayton Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): So great to hear "Too Cool For This World" on KCRW today...thanks to Anne for that! Date: Wed Jan 20 09:21 Celia (drcbrown@ucla.edu): Dear Josh, I'm thinking of you today, and most everyday I send a thought your way, since our little Kaya reminds me constantly of you. I know somewhere in her little dog brain she remembers you too. Your sweet presence in our lives still remains somehow, even after ten years. I love you, and your Kaya sends you a doggie kiss. Date: Wed Jan 20 04:35 lindsay gerszt (lindsay.lipton@gmail.com): Josh, as this day has approached us I have been remembering so much of our friendship. I have tears in my eyes and a smile on my face. You taught me so much when you were here and you continue to teach me so much. I love you more than words can say. I remember the first time I met you. I knew you would be a special person in my life. When you stayed with me after you came back from Boston; I still have the notes you left me each morning as we went on with our days. I also remember the last time I saw you in the hospital. There is so much more I wish I said but I didn't know it would have been the last time I'd see you. I wonder if people know about what you told me that day. I burned the last of the sage you brought me back from a trip you went on when I visited you last. I hope you got to enjoy it. Last night my husband gave me a picture frame with a picture of a dragonfly flying into the sunset with the words I always say "every day you're born every night you die let the dragonfly come and give you a ride". He knows how much you mean to me and my son will also. There has been so much growth, heartache, learning that has happened in the last 10 years but it seems like we were sitting at Dupars laughing together yesterday. I love you always. Thank you with all my heart for sharing time with me. Date: Wed Jan 20 03:59 Michael Ward (michael@mikeandthebike.com): JCF- I'm drinking a glass of red wine and listening to all the old music. It was an honor to be your friend and share such great times with you. You inspire me, still. -Michael Date: Wed Jan 20 03:56 Monica (monica_mullens@yahoo.com): Thinking of my sweet friend Josh Clayton-Felt today. A brilliant musician and one of the loveliest human beings I had ever met. Josh, you wouldn't believe how often I've thought of you through the years and continue to listen to your music. Your positive vibes and pure heart are sorely missed. Date: Wed Jan 20 02:53 Sarah Adler (sadlersadler@mac.com): Josh, Your dear family, kind friends, and supportive community have taught me so much about life, loss, patience and grace. I am in awe of these lessons as I move through my own journey. Thank you for these gift. Sarah Date: Wed Jan 20 02:39 Carolyn Powell (carolynp14@yahoo.com): I still can't believe it has been 10 years since you moved onto the next plane. I was just talking with someone about you. It was really nice, but quite hard at the same time. I miss you so much. Love you, Carolyn/Money Penny Date: Wed Jan 20 00:57 renee (reneestahl@gmail.com): missing you and your laughter today shwa.. love you nay nay Date: Tue Jan 19 21:13 Shay G. (wavecowboy67@sbcglobal.net): Dear Joshie.... 10 years it's been since we lost you, but for me it seems like you have never left us. Your spirit, music and voice are with us every day. Not a day passes that I don't give thanks for having met you that special night at Sonoma State in 1991. You and your family are constantly in my prayers, and I will never forget you. I had a great surf session in Malibu last weekend and I think you had something to do with it. Great waves, beautiful skies, and my JCF rockin' all the way to the beach! Thank you for everything Josh. You are in my mind and in my heart every day of my life. Rest easy brother.... Shay G. Date: Tue Jan 19 21:12 eileen (loharrist@yahoo.com): I became a fan of Josh's while attending UMass in the early '90s; I will never forget when my favorite professor, John Clayton, mentioned that Josh was his son. I recently learned about his loss and am profoundly saddened. My condolences to the family; I am heartened that you still have his music, a part of his soul that continues to live on. Date: Tue Jan 19 16:29 Laura Clayton Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): Dear Josh...I've missed you every day of these last 10 years...sometimes I imagine what it would be like to have you here now, dropping by each others houses and sharing our lives...never realizing how truly amazing something so normal could be. I'll be having a pancake breakfast and visiting you today. Love Laura Date: Tue Jan 19 15:27 Suzanne Rivera (suzanne.rivera@utsouthwestern.edu): I cannot believe it has been ten years already. Still thinking of you, Josh, and your good heart. I have introduced your music to my kids. Your spirit lives on. ~~ Sue Date: Tue Jan 19 14:27 Connie Naqvi (connienaqvi9@yahoo.com): Thinking of you today Josh. How on Earth could I ever thank you for sharing your spiritual insight, wisdom and talent with the world? It is obvious you have reached, touched, inspired, uplifted and encouraged so many of us. Though I never had the honor of knowing you, I still feel I've lost something special. See you in the next dream.... Date: Tue Jan 19 13:35 Henry Felt (henryfelt@gmail.com): Dear, dear Josh Although ten years has passed, the missing you has not. Starting around mid December I begin my thinking and missing period. I miss you. BUT, Barbara and I have crows here in Croton (Crow Town?). A large Dragon Fly is attached to a tree outside. Your music is always here; so is you smiling face, and I keep both Laura and George close to my heart. I'm off to ski at Alta, I'm sure I'll find you there. Henry Date: Tue Jan 19 09:20 Jeff (Rosenthaljc@sbcglobal.net): Ten years have passed in the blink of an eye. Yesterday we were laughing. You were smiling and being the best friend a man could have. This world needs people like you and you have inspired many to be their caring best. Ten years passed in the blink of an eye, and the thirty-two years before that lingered just long enough for me to never forget you. You were a friend like not many can be, and an artist of unwavering talent. Josh Clayton-Felt, I miss you. - Your old friend, Jeff. Date: Mon Jan 18 22:59 Keiko (cake9500@msn.com): Dear Josh, Thank you for your great songs giving us. Your music grasp my heart & soul and changed my life. 10 years has passed since you left. May your soul rest in peace. with love from Far East, Keiko Date: Tue Jan 12 00:58 Eric Reed (skippythefrog@yahoo.com): Wow, ten years...Josh is still my hero. Date: Sun Jan 10 04:41 patrick dempsey (demps10@yahoo.com): I was a huge fan of School Of Fish in college. Their debut album came out my junior year of college in 1991 along with many other great power pop bands like Material Issue. I learned Josh had passed away years ago, but I am now re-discovering some of the lost music from my college years and School Of Fish is squarely in my Top 10 of all time favorite college-era power pop music. As a man of faith, Jesus taught us that we should always pray for those that have gone before us so that someone will pray for us after we are gone. And so I pray for you Josh and pray that you are free in heaven. God Bless. Amen. Date: Sat Jan 9 11:30 Dan (danda_man@hotmail.com): As a teen I listened to School of Fish over and over. Josh's voice was amazing. Out total curiosity I looked him up on Wiki and I landed here. I actually shed a tear...not very manly for a 36 year old to cry, but the shock of just finding out about Josh's tragic death and the video from Goodmorning America was too much for me to take. To the family....I am sorry, the loss of a loved one never easy. Date: Tue Dec 15 06:43 BMASER (brian@maserproperties.com): Good times, good love, good music... Life goes on and your soul continues to fly... Remembering days of past... Peaceful, graceful & serene... Doesn't ever end... Date: Thu Dec 3 22:21 Katie (Katgamer26@gmail.com): I was just listening to a song that reminded me of "the good old days." Thought I would check out the site and post. I wanted to remind everyone that Josh's music still inspires and makes people smile. Date: Tue Dec 1 20:36 Henry Felt (henryfelt@gmail.com): Missing you right now, and the missing you is not new. There have been so many moments I wish you were present for. But I find you where ever I go. Henry Date: Thu Oct 29 20:29 Greg (sixpence-guy@yahoo.com): Added Josh's music to my new iPod this week and listented to him on my way to school. Am at my desk with the window open as I type this. The sound of kids playing, police sirens, and a man unloading a truck rise up to mingle with "What Good Is Heaven." A soft breeze is blowing, and it's time to grade some papers. Josh, your music is still the soundtrack of my life. Date: Thu Oct 22 02:52 rod bond (rodandmar@bellsouth.net): Josh's music has been an inspiration for a long time. Already Gone and Dragonfly touch my soul very deeply. He was truly a wonderful gifted artist and his music is such a treasure for anyone to find. I am sorry that he is gone but so grateful for what he gave us. Date: Fri Oct 9 16:58 Kent (kbogdan@bogdandesign.com): 10.9.09, I just learned that Josh passed looking through his site and feel just so sad, not knowing for this long just makes it hurt more. I met Josh in detroit while he was touring for Inarticulate Nature Boy, we chatted for a while, he was so nice and not rushed to head out. just spent time talking to me. I remember asking about M Ward, SOF days, etc. that music truly defined times in my life that still stir my soul when I listen to them. I didn't know Josh but I could tell he was kind and honest, a caring soul. So much of what this world needs in people. This will take some time to soak in and I have to leave on a business trip today... I have added SOF and his solo work to my MP3 and think I will have some good head time on the plane listening to him. So sorry for this late acknowledgment Josh, ride on mate. kb Date: Sun Sep 27 04:13 eden (edenwillow@gmail.com): hi josh. i can't believe it's been so long since we lost you, but i still think of you all the time, so you must be here in some way. miss you. Date: Sat Sep 26 05:33 Julianne (jules@bluesridge.net): Well Josh, I think it's probably obvious that I'm feeling as though you and your mother are very close tonight; that's the reason I've stopped by after so long. Sometimes you just know where you're meant to be. Peace and love. Date: Sat Sep 12 01:51 Adrienne (fipster@gmail.com): Thinking of Josh today, miss your beautiful soul. Date: Wed Sep 9 09:01 Jeff (Rosenthaljc@sbcglobal.net): Miss you. Date: Sun Aug 30 04:11 Kristin Mason (kristin@csgwireless.com): I am remembering Josh now from Skipping school in 1992, to see him play at Tempe Arizona. He was so friendly and nice, he played soccer with me and my group of friends! It had become one of the most memorable days in my mind that he was so down to earth. I was 16 then and now I am 34....Josh is still so very missed in this world. Date: Fri Aug 28 16:47 Rachel (rachel_seeger@yahoo.com): Hello Josh, You and your beautiful music are on my mind today. Thinking of you in the shadows of concerte giants in Chicago. Your memory remains a blessing, Rachel Date: Fri Aug 21 22:54 Tommy Manzi (thomasmanzi@mac.com): Hi JCF. I am thinking of you. Paint the tree green. Date: Thu Jul 9 17:06 Parish (mparish@marchelectronics.com): This is my favorite chapter from my favorite book. It's reassuring themes of continuance and remembrance are very comforting. I hope that it can bring as much peace to all who read it. Josh was a one-of-a-kind soul and he lives on inside all of us... GREAT GRANDMA SHE WAS A WOMAN WITH A BROOM OR DUST PAN OR A WASHRAG OR A MIXING SPOON IN HER HAND. YOU SAW HER CUTTING PIECRUST IN THE MORNING, HUMMING TO IT, OR YOU SAW HER SETTING OUT THE BAKED PIES AT NOON OR TAKING THEM IN, COOL, AT DUSK. SHE RANG PORCELAIN CUPS LIKE A SWISS BELL RINGER, TO THEIR PLACE. SHE GLIDED THROUGH HALLS AS STEADILY AS A VACUUM MACHINE, SEEKING, FINDING AND SETTING TO RIGHTS. SHE MADE MIRRORS OUT OF EVERY WINDOW, TO CATCH THE SUN. SHE STROLLED BUT TWICE THROUGH ANY GARDEN, TROWEL IN HAND, AND THE FLOWERS RAISED THEIR QUIVERING FIRES UPON THE WARM AIR OF HER WAKE. SHE SLEPT QUIETLY AND TURNED NO MORE THAN THREE TIMES IN A NIGHT, AS RELAXED AS A WHITE GLOVE TO WHICH, AT DAWN, A BRISK HAND WILL RETURN. WAKING, SHE TOUCHED PEOPLE LIKE PICTURES, TO SET THEIR FRAMES STRAIGHT. BUT, NOW…? “GRANDMA,” SAID EVERYONE. “GREAT-GRANDMA”. NOW IT WAS AS IF A HUGE SUM IN ARITHMETIC WERE FINALLY DRAWING TO AN END. SHE HAD STUFFED TURKEYS, CHICKENS, SQUABS, GENTLEMEN AND BOYS. SHE HAD WASHED CEILINGS, WALLS, INVALIDS, AND CHILDREN. SHE HAD LAID LINOLEUM, REPAIRED BICYCLES, WOUND CLOCKS, STOKED FURNACES, SWABBED IODINE ON TEN THOUSAND GRIEVOUS WOUNDS. HER HANDS HAD FLOWN ALL AROUND ABOUT AND DOWN, GENTLING THIS, HOLDING THAT, THROWING BASEBALLS, SWINGING BRIGHT CROQUET MALLETS, SEEDING BLACK EARTH, OR FIXING COVERS OVER DUMPLINGS, RAGOUTS, AND CHILDREN WILDLY STREWN BY SLUMBER. SHE HAD PULLED DOWN SHADES, PINCHED OUT CANDLES, TURNED SWITCHES, AND – GROWN OLD. LOOKING BACK ON THIRTY BILLIONS OF THINGS STARTED, CARRIED, FINISHED AND DONE, IT ALL SUMMED UP, TOTALED OUT; THE LAST DECIMAL WAS PLACED, THE FINAL ZERO SWUNG SLOWLY INTO LINE A SILENT HOUR BEFORE REACHING FOR THE ERASER. “LET ME SEE NOW” SAID GREAT-GRANDMA. “LET ME SEE……..” WITH NO FUSS OR FURTHER ADO, SHE TRAVELED THE HOUSE IN AN EVER-CIRCLING INVENTORY, REACHED THE STAIRS AT LAST, AND, MAKING NO SPECIAL ANNOUNCEMENT, SHE TOOK HERSELF UP THE THREE FLIGHTS TO HER ROOM WHERE, SILENTLY, SHE LAID HERSELF OUT LIKE A FOSSIL IMPRINT UNDER THE SNOWING COOL SHEETS OF HER BED AND BEGAN TO DIE. AGAIN THE VOICES: “GRANDMA!, GREAT-GRANDMA!” THE RUMOR OF WHAT SHE WAS DOING DROPPED DOWN THE STAIRWELL, HIT, AND SPREAD RIPPLES THROUGH THE ROOMS, OUT THE DOORS AND WINDOWS AND ALONG THE STREET OF ELMS TO THE EDGE OF THE GREEN RAVINE. “HERE NOW HERE!” THE FAMILY SURROUNDED HER BED. “JUST LET ME LIE,” SHE WHISPERED. HER AILMENT COULD NOT BE SEEN IN ANY MICROSCOPE; IT WAS A MILD BUT EVER-DEEPENING TIREDNESS, A DIM WEIGHTING OF HER SPARROW BODY; SLEEPY; SLEEPIER; SLEEPIEST. AS FOR HER CHILDREN AND HER CHILDREN’S CHILDREN-IT SEEMED IMPOSSIBLE THAT WITH SUCH A SIMPLE ACT, THE MOST LEISURELY ACT IN THE WORLD, SHE COULD CAUSE SUCH APPREHENSION. “GREAT-GRANDMA, NOW LISTEN- WHAT YOU’RE DOING IS NO BETTER THAN BREAKING A LEASE. THIS HOUSE WILL FALL DOWN WITHOUT YOU. YOU MUST GIVE US AT LEAST A YEAR’S NOTICE!” GREAT-GRANDMA OPENED ONE EYE. NINETY YEARS GAZED CALMLY OUT AT HER PHYSICIANS LIKE A DUST-GHOST FROM A HIGH CUPOLA WINDOW IN A FAST EMPTYING HOUSE. “TOM…?” THE BOY WAS SENT, ALONE, TO HER WHISPERING BED. “TOM,” SHE SAID, FAINTLY, FAR AWAY, “IN THE SOUTHERN SEAS THERE’S A DAY IN EACH MAN’S LIFE WHEN HE KNOWS IT’S TIME TO SAY GOOD-BY AND SAIL AWAY, AND HE DOES, AND IT’S NATURAL-IT’S JUST HIS TIME. THAT’S HOW IT IS TODAY. I’M SO LIKE YOU SOMETIMES, SITTING THROUGH SATURDAY MATINEES UNTIL NINE AT NIGHT WHEN WE SEND YOUR DAD TO BRING YOU HOME. TOM, WHEN THE TIME COMES THAT THE SAME COWBOYS ARE SHOOTING THE SAME INDIANS ON THE SAME MOUNTAINTOP, THEN IT’S BEST TO FOLD BACK THE SEAT AND HEAD FOR THE DOOR, WITH NO REGRETS AND NO WALKING BACKWARD UP THE AISLE. SO, I’M LEAVING WHILE I’M HAPPY AND STILL ENTERTAINED”. DOUGLAS WAS SUMMONED NEXT TO HER SIDE. “GRANDMA, WHO’LL SHINGLE THE ROOF NEXT SPRING?” EVERY APRIL FOR AS FAR BACK AS THERE WERE CALENDERS, YOU THOUGHT YOU HEARD WOODPECKERS TAPPING THE HOUSETOP. BUT NO, IT WAS GREAT-GRANDMA, SOMEHOW TRANSPORTED, SINGING, POUNDING NAILS, REPLACING SHINGLES, HIGH IN THE SKY! “DOUGLAS,” SHE WHISPERED, “DON’T EVER LET ANYONE DO THE SHINGLES UNLESS IT’S FUN FOR THEM.” “YES’M” “LOOK AROUND COME APRIL, AND SAY, “WHO’D LIKE TO FIX THE ROOF?’ AND WHICHEVER FACE LIGHTS UP IS THE FACE YOU WANT, DOUGLAS. BECAUSE UP THERE ON THAT ROOF YOU CAN SEE THE WHOLE TOWN GOING TOWARD THE COUNTRY AND THE COUNTRY GOING TOWARD THE EDGE OF THE EARTH AND THE RIVER SHINING, AND THE MORNING LAKE, AND BIRDS ON THE TREES DOWN UNDER YOU, AND THE BEST OF THE WIND ALL AROUND ABOVE. ANY ONE OF THOSE SHOULD BE ENOUGH TO MAKE A PERSON CLIMB A WEATHER VANE SOME SPRING SUNRISE. IT’S A POWERFUL HOUR, IF YOU GIVE IT HALF A CHANCE… HER VOICE SANK TO A FLUTTER. DOUGLAS WAS CRYING. SHE ROUSED HERSELF AGAIN. “NOW, WHY ARE YOU DOING THAT?” “BECAUSE,” HE SAID, “YOU WON’T BE HERE TOMORROW.” SHE TURNED A SMALL HAND MIRROR FROM HERSELF TO THE BOY. HE LOOKED AT HER FACE AND HIMSELF IN THE MIRROR AND THEN AT HER FACE AGAIN AS SHE SAID, “TOMMORROW MORNING I’LL GET UP AT SEVEN AND WASH BEHIND MY EARS; I”LL RUN TO CHURCH WITH CHARLIE WOODMAN; I’LL PICNIC AT ELECTRIC PARK; I’LL SWIM, RUN BAREFOOT, FALL OUT OF TREES, CHEW SPEARMINT GUM…..DOUGLAS, DOUGLAS, FOR SHAME! YOU CUT FINGERNAILS, DON’T YOU?” “YES’M” “AND YOU DON’T YELL WHEN YOUR BODY MAKES ITSELF OVER EVERY SEVEN YEARS OR SO, OLD CELLS DEAD AND NEW ONES ADDED TO YOUR FINGERS AND YOUR HEART. YOU DON’T MIND THAT, DO YOU?” “NO’M” “WELL, CONSIDER THEN, BOY. ANY MAN SAVES FINGERNAIL CLIPPINGS IS A FOOL. YOU EVER SEE A SNAKE BOTHER TO KEEP HIS PEELED SKIN? THAT’S ABOUT ALL YOU GOT HERE TODAY IN THIS BED IS FINGERNAILS AND SNAKE SKIN. ONE GOOD BREATH WOULD SEND ME UP IN FLAKES. IMPORTANT THING IS NOT THE ME THAT’S LYING HERE, BUT THE ME THAT’S SITTING ON THE EDGE OF THE BED LOOKING BACK AT ME, AND THE ME THAT’S DOWNSTAIRS COOKING SUPPER, OR OUT IN THE GARAGE UNDER THE CAR, OR IN THE LIBRARY READING. ALL THE NEW PARTS, THEY COUNT. I’M NOT REALLY DYING TODAY. NO PERSON EVER DIED THAT HAD A FAMILY. I’LL BE AROUND A LONG TIME. A THOUSAND YEARS FROM NOW A WHOLE TOWNSHIP OF MY OFFSPRING WILL BE BITING SOUR APPLES IN THE GUMWOOD SHADE. THAT’S MY ANSWER TO ANYONE ASKS BIG QUESTIONS! QUICK NOW, SEND IN THE REST! AT LAST THE ENTIRE FAMILY STOOD, LIKE PEOPLE SEEING SOMEONE OFF AT A RAIL STATION, WAITING IN THE ROOM. “WELL,” SAID GREAT-GRANDMA, “THERE I AM. I’M NOT HUMBLE, SO IT’S NICE SEEING YOU STANDING AROUND MY BED. NOW NEXT WEEK THERE’S LATE GARDENING AND CLOSET-CLEANING AND CLOTHES BUYING FOR CHILDREN TO DO. AND SINCE THE PART OF ME WHICH IS CALLED, FOR CONVENIENCE, GREAT-GRANDMA, WON’T BE HERE TO STEP IT ALONG, THOSE OTHER PARTS OF ME CALLED UNCLE BERT AND LEO AND TOM AND DOUGLAS, AND ALL THE OTHER NAMES, WILL HAVE TO TAKE OVER, EACH TO HIS OWN”. “YES, GRANDMA.” “I DON’T WANT ANY HALLOWEEN PARTIES HERE TOMORROW. DON’T WANT ANYONE SAYING ANYTHING SWEET ABOUT ME; I SAID IT ALL IN MY TIME AND MY PRIDE. I’VE TASTED EVERY VICTUAL AND DANCED EVERY DANCE; NOW THERE’S ONE TUNE I HAVEN’T WHISTLED. BUT I’M NOT AFRAID. I’M TRULY CURIOUS. DEATH WON’T GET A CRUMB BY MY MOUTH I WON’T KEEP AND SAVOR. SO DON’T WORRY OVER ME. NOW, ALL OF YOU GO, AND LET ME FIND MY SLEEP….” SOMEWHERE A DOOR CLOSED QUIETLY. “THAT’S BETTER.” ALONE, SHE SNUGGLED LUXURIOUSLY DOWN THROUGH THE WARM SNOWBANK OF LINEN AND WOOL, SHEET AND COVER, AND THE COLORS OF THE PATCHWORK QUILT WERE BRIGHT AS THE CIRCUS BANNERS OF OLD TIME. LYING THERE, SHE FELT AS SMALL AND SECRET AS ON THOSE MORNINGS EIGHTY-SOME-ODD YEARS AGO WHEN, WAKENING, SHE COMFORTED HER TENDER BONES IN BED. A LONG TIME BACK, SHE THOUGHT, I DREAMED A DREAM, AND THAT WAS THE DAY I WAS BORN. AND NOW?, NOW ?, LET ME SEE… SHE CAST HER MIND BACK. WHERE WAS I? SHE THOUGHT. NINETY YEARS….HOW TO TAKE UP THE THREAD AND THE PATTERN OF THAT LOST DREAM AGAIN? SHE PUT OUT A SMALL HAND. THERE………YES, THAT WAS IT. SHE SMILED. DEEPER IN THE WARM SNOW HILL SHE TURNED HER HEAD UPON HER PILLOW. THAT WAS BETTER. NOW, YES, NOW SHE SAW IT SHAPING IN HER MIND QUIETLY, AND WITH A SERENITY LIKE A SEA MOVING ALONG AN ENDLESS AND SELF-REFRESHING SHORE. NOW SHE LET THE OLD DREAM TOUCH AND LIFT HER FROM THE SNOW AND DRIFT HER ABOVE THE SCARCE-REMEMBERED BED. DOWNSTAIRS, SHE THOUGHT, THEY ARE POLISHING THE SILVER, AND RUMMAGING THE CELLAR, AND DUSTING IN THE HALLS. SHE COULD HEAR THEM LIVING ALL THROUGH THE HOUSE. “IT’S ALL RIGHT,” WHISPERED GREAT-GRANDMA, AS THE DREAM FLOATED HER. “LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE IN THIS LIFE, IT’S FITTING.” AND THE SEA MOVED HER BACK DOWN THE SHORE… RAY BRADBURY ~ DANDELION WINE Date: Thu Jun 25 17:38 Joyce Marrtin (jycgilbert@aol.com): I guess I've been out of circulation for a long time, but I had no idea that Josh had passed, especially so long ago! I was devestated to find out the news, I'm still upset as I type this. I had the privelage of meeting Josh(and the other members of School of Fish) back in the 90's at a club in New Haven,Ct. called Toad's Place. At that point, it was the third time I had seen them live(they opened for The Divinyls), so they remembered my face (or at least pretended to). Josh was such a nice guy to meet and talk to, I will miss him deeply!!!!! Date: Tue May 19 02:11 Laura Clayton Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): Hi Josh...Thinking about you especially today on your birthday...hope you're feeling all the love coming your way. You were very much a part of Chad and Brooke's wedding a couple of weeks ago...as were Jeff and Wolf...so many of your community of friends there too. I've been thinking how wonderful it would be if we were having a dinner party here for you tonight. You'll be here in our hearts. I love you and miss you so very much. Laura Date: Mon May 18 19:25 Henry Felt (henryfelt@gmail.com): Hello Josh, I seem to miss you more and more, but at the same time I find you in my dreams more and more. Today I'm practicing to accompany you on "Half Life" for the LightSong production. George thinks I can still play the banjo, but it's hard to get the fingers moving the way I want them to -- but that's what the song is all about, so my fingers are remembering and working on it; I won't give up. I want to write to you without being overwhelmed by loss; instead I want to feel your cheer, integrity and the enduring strength of your life. I love you and miss you, Henry Date: Mon May 18 14:08 Tommy Manzi (thomasmanzi@mac.com): Happy Birthday Josh. As always, thinking of you on a regular basis. You are missed. You are loved. Date: Wed Apr 22 16:07 Connie Naqvi (connienaqvi9@yahoo.com): For the past year, I have been dealing with a pending divorce and at times, it has been very confusing and difficult. At the time I filed for the divorce, I discovered Josh's solo music. What a powerful thing. In his lyrics I have found solace, inspiration, insight and encouragement. I know this sounds crazy but during this past year, when times are really hard, I dream about Josh. For the 1st several dreams, he never talked to me. He simply walked beside me and held my hand. He always had a very peaceful look with a gentle smile. I only dream of him when I seem to be lacking courage. Even if my dreams really don't mean anything for real, thanks anyway for making me feel like I can do this. Date: Fri Apr 17 02:52 Chris Barton (cbarton@bartoncareeradvisors.com): This will sound "cornball" but I heard SOF for the first time at the Stone Balloon in Newark, DE. They were playing with the DiVinyls. I was a senior at UD in 1991 and Josh come out after his opening set and drank with us. I had a drink with him at the bar and he signed my fraternity hat. He was cool and I admired him- so approachable and real. I'll remember it for a long time. I am listening to SOF right now.....he lives on...... Date: Tue Apr 14 23:11 funkotronic (funkotronic_at_mac_dot_com): Wow, I was a fan "back in the day" and SoF still lives on my Pod, but where have I been: I just found out that Josh passed like, what, 9 years ago!?! I'm not going to pretend to be a music reviewer or anything like that.... just that Josh's music helped to get me thru a rough part in my life. Finding out that he passed literally brought tears to my eyes, and that's a rare ocurrence. Play on, brother... Date: Tue Apr 14 19:14 Jeff (toksai@hotmail.com): I remember hearing School of Fish when they came out in the 90's and I thought it was just awesome but it wasn't until I discovered Inarticulate Nature Boy by Josh that I discovered his true song writing capabilities. What a unique and great song writer. The fact that he is no longer with us makes his music even more powerful. Date: Tue Apr 7 06:57 Jeff (Rosenthaljc@sbcglobal.net): Joshy! I know you know, but Chad's getting married and I'm performing the ceremony and I will gladly take any words of encouragement you'd like to send! oh, and I miss you! Jeffy Date: Tue Mar 31 03:01 erik labelle (erik.labelle@comcast.net): Hello everybody. I would like to say that Josh and School of Fish continue to be a huge influence in my music. The beautiful writing and arrangements take me to a very special place. I wish that I could have seen them live.. Date: Sun Mar 22 03:54 nicky ( njcorbett@charter.net): Finley is singing "Deer in the Headlights" these days. He really connects with it even though he's only 5 - he can even sing the melody in the chorus. Miss you and sending love to your family and friends. Date: Mon Mar 16 22:50 Gemma Brunton (gemma@brunton.co.uk): Hi everyone, I felt compelled to write after purely by chance rediscovering and listening to (for the first time in probably 15 years!) the School of Fish album, particularly 'Euphoria', that was massively influential and inspirational to me as a struggling 17 yr old trying to find her way in life. I am so glad to have this back in my life! I am really looking forward to exploring the other genius songwriting that Josh created, and I am so sorry that he is no longer around but thrilled he had such a profound effect on other people's lives too....x Date: Mon Mar 16 06:21 Paul Becker (pebecker@gmail.com): Josh, Thinking about you today while listening to some of your music. I had a pancake too, but sadly it wasn't a banana pancake. Maybe I'll make a batch soon in your memory. Date: Thu Feb 26 19:55 deborah brahms lewis (deborah_e_lewis@hotmail.com): I feel odd writing this as I didn't know Josh as an adult. Josh and I went to high school together and while we were not super close we did spend time together talking and hanging-out. What I remember most was his way of walking, or skipping as I remember it; he always wore a backpack over both shoulders and he would skip in front as he looked back to talk with me. He always had a grin. After all of these years I came across information of his passing and I wanted his friends and family to know that he touched so many others in life, even if only peripherally, and truly made a difference. Date: Tue Feb 24 21:25 Shannon Wilson (Echocerise at hotmail.com): wow................ Date: Sat Feb 7 06:29 bill w. (wilwix@gmail.com): they played "three strange days" earlier on the radio. always loved that song. i CRANKED it up because i was totally feeling bad and it made me feel so much better to listen to it LOUD. i didn't have enough of it and went to youtube to listen to it a couple more times. i was curious about the band, where are they now, was totally saddened to read josh died. terrible. i've been feeling very badly the past few days, like REALLY badly, listening to "three strange days" made me think it would be not a good idea to check out, better stick around and try to get through this. thanks josh. (was quite surprised to see it's the anniversary of josh's death.) Date: Sat Feb 7 06:20 bill w. (wilwix@gmail.com): they played "three strange days" earlier on the radio. always loved that song. i CRANKED it up because i was totally feeling bad and it made me feel so much better to listen to it LOUD. i didn't have enough of it and went to youtube to listen to it a couple more times. i was curious about the band, where are they now, was totally saddened to read josh died. terrible. i've been feeling very badly the past few days, like REALLY badly, listening to "three strange days" made me think it would be not a good idea to check out, better stick around and try to get through this. thanks josh. (was quite surprised to see it's the anniversary of josh's death.) Date: Fri Feb 6 18:49 John J. Clayton (jclayton@english.umass.edu): Dear Josh, After nine years it's hardly any easier, losing you. Tonight and tomorrow is your yahrzeit--the anniversary of your dying--in the Hebrew calendar, and tomorrow I'll offer a d'var Torah, a Torah talk, in your honor, and I'll light a candle and say Kaddish. I remember when you came with me to synagogue. As I grow older and closer to dying, I grow closer to you, where you are now. I love you, dear son. Dad Date: Wed Jan 21 21:50 guido from munich (guido.steer@mx.de): Hello,i got now the cd Spirit touches ground its beautyfull Idondt know wich one i love more inarticulat natural boy or spirit touches ground. i play in a band and wrote songs too. josh was the best songwriter i ever heard Im shure he must be in a heaven full of violins and they play beautyfull melodys.are there any more cds of josh?and where you can get them or how they called? sorry for my strange english Im a bavarian. Thank you josh guido Date: Tue Jan 20 15:55 Michael Ward (michael@mikeandthebike.com): Josh- I'm thinking about you today, as always. I know you're still around, watching everything, taking notes, and writing songs. Thanks for everything over the years. Your pal- MW Date: Tue Jan 20 11:41 Dave (superdave.a@gmail.com): Odd how I found this little spot on the web. I decided to listen to Three Strange Days, and decided to do a wiki search on the band. My friend pointed out the date. January 19th. Thanks for the tunes Josh. Rest in peace. Date: Tue Jan 20 04:48 henry felt (henryfelt@gmail.com): Oh Josh, A candle is burning for you tonight. To say I miss you is trivial. But on the other hand, Danny and I are off to Alta for skiing. I'll remember forever our trip out there, and when going down the slopes I'll sing lots of songs for you. Violets Forever, Henry Date: Tue Jan 20 00:01 Jeff (obama08@sbcglobal.net): Heading to the Honor lodge in a couple of hours. I miss you exponentially my dear old friend. Love and hope - Jeffy. Date: Mon Jan 19 20:45 carol (carol@fantoo.com): Blowing kisses to the clouds in your honor. Chase and Max put dragon fly stickers on the window this morning. How apropos. Your spirit warms us Josh, on such a snowy winter day. Come visit when ever the magic carpet swings by. We send loads of positive energy to you and your family. Date: Mon Jan 19 18:06 Laura CLayton Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): Hey Josh...9 years of missing you but also keeping your spirit alive inside me. Amazing the joy you've brought to the world, and continue to bring...I love it when new people discover your music, and of course when people who have always loved it continue to find pleasure, sustenance, compassion, there. Give Mommy and Nanny big hugs for me. There's someone who's just come over to your world who you'd love to know...Jay Kaplan...kind and sweet and funny and creative and only 28. He took immense pleasure in life like you. I hope you make each other laugh. I know how pleased you must be about tomorrow's inauguration...what a turn the country has taken! I'm off to visit your earthly resting place. I Love you, Laura Date: Mon Jan 19 12:28 Connie Naqvi (connienaqvi9@yahoo.com): Thinking of you today Josh....what an amazing soul. Date: Mon Jan 19 03:14 ML (futureman75@gmail.com): 9 years. That's incredible. Thinking of you and the positive influence your work had on me as an adolescent. Date: Mon Jan 19 02:46 Tommy Manzi (thomasmanzi@mac.com): Nine years... dates... anniversaries... my last conversation with you was December 28, 1999. It feels at both so recent... and so distant... as always, I am thinking of you... missing you... but most of all remembering your smile, your warmth... and how special you are... on this day and every day Joshua. Playing "Paint The Tree Green" and "Deer In The Headlights" right now... TM Date: Sun Jan 18 23:16 Dene Wilby (dene.w@btinternet.com): Sorry, I forgot to point out that you can see that video now by going to the homepage... Date: Sun Jan 18 23:14 Dene Wilby (dene.w@btinternet.com): 9 years? It just doesn't seem right that time can pass so quickly. I've been listening to Josh and School Of Fish a LOT this past couple of weeks and the music has the same effect on me every single time. If i'm feeling down it brings me right back up without fail. Josh had THE greatest voice in rock music in my opinion and although we could have had so much more beautiful music from him i'm just grateful I have the music he created in my collection. So I was really excited this week to hear from Gil Gilbert who directed the video for School Of Fish's King Of The Dollar. I'd never seen this video and it brought back so many memories because it was THIS song that really got me excited to see School Of Fish and I was lucky enough to see them only a week later opening for Crowded House in Leeds, UK. To add to that excitement I met Josh and Michael that day and stayed in touch ever since. Two of the nicest people I have ever met....... Date: Sun Jan 18 19:40 Bridgette (bridgea@comcast.net): A moment ago, while in my kitchen talking to my brother, our conversation was interrupted by the loud squawking of birds outside. One swooshed by the window and I thought it was the red-tailed hawk who likes to hang in our tall trees. My brother and I looked out the window as the noise got louder and louder. Within a minute, there were hundreds of crows in every tree, flying in and out of the branches and all of them so loud. I couldn't help but put on my coat and go outside to sit in lawn and listen and watch. Marilyn, we talked of crows an awful lot and Josh's connection to them. Was that your way of saying Happy Birthday to me? I'm not sure how else to explain that wave of energy that warmed me from head to toe. With much love, Bridgette Date: Sat Jan 17 21:26 Bridgette (bridgea@comcast.net): A moment ago, while in my kitchen talking to my brother, our conversation was interrupted by the loud squawking of birds outside. One swooshed by the window and I thought it was the red-tailed hawk who likes to hang in our tall trees. My brother and I looked out the window as the noise got louder and louder. Within a minute, there were hundreds of crows in every tree, flying in and out of the branches and all of them so loud. I couldn't help but put on my coat and go outside to sit in lawn and listen and watch. Marilyn, we talked of crows an awful lot and Josh's connection to them. Was that your way of saying Happy Birthday to me? I'm not sure how else to explain that wave of energy that warmed me from head to toe. With much love, Bridgette Date: Fri Jan 9 16:54 Jr. (jrhunte@ipr.edu): I was cleaning a closet last night looking for something and happened across a box of CD's that I had stored so the kids wouldn't get into them. Some of my personal favorites, the ones that make you remember exactly what you were doing and where you were when you last listened to it. In that box was, "Spirit Touches Ground". I immediately put it on and my daughter asked, "Dad, what are you listening to?" I explained the history of the CD and it reminded me that the last time I listened to it, I was painting her room in preparation for her birth. I sat down on the couch and she sat on my lap. We listened to the whole CD, even past her bedtime. Josh you were too cool for this world, I just wanted to say thanks for another unforgettable moment that your music gave me! Peace, Jr. Date: Thu Jan 1 23:30 Dene Wilby (dene.w@btinternet.com): Happy 2009 everyone. I'm hoping to give the site a bit of a facelift this year. Nothing too radical, just a little freshen up :-) Dene Date: Thu Dec 18 02:47 carol (carol@fantoo.com): This time of year is bittersweet, but I aim to make it just sweet. Pinch my Dad for me and yourself. And thanks for the dreamtime visit. My boys love you. We all do. Date: Tue Dec 16 04:02 la la d (lduman@charter.net): Your dog is the best! Date: Sun Dec 14 22:45 Scott (madman.x2@gmail.com): Wow.... a couple of months ago, I was working in the garage, listening to an alternative radio stream from my box (XRM), when I heard the classic "Three Strange Days". I immediately stopped what I was doing and searched my garage for a piece of paper on which to write the name of the song down so I wouldn't forget the title. I did so, thinking.. wow.. that was one of my favorite songs of the early 90's at that time and I'd forgotten about it! Thanks to google, I was able to be "reminded" that the band that sang the song was School of Fish. After some more googling, I discovered this site from Wikipedia and discovered who the lead singer was, Josh, and that he'd passed away several years ago. While I'm saddened to hear that, I did feel compelled to write down a big THANKS to Josh and his band mates for the song - It still lifts me up to this day and I listen to it often. I'm glad we connected through the music...it will last forever. Date: Sun Nov 9 13:30 dean (dean.gg@hotmail.co.uk): Big School of Fish fan decided to add to my collection all solo works and take time to add this message the guy was talented and smart and has left behind a legacy that will ensure his status will, like Buckley, continue to grow Date: Thu Nov 6 21:39 Alicia (awebster75@yahoo.com): So sad that now that I have found him again that he is gone. I always had a strange connection to this person singing on this CD I bought when I was in high school. Now, seventeen years later I am still listening to him and he still seems familiar to me. I looked him and only to find that he is no longer on this plane of existence. He seemed to be so full of life and insight into our Native ways, wish I could have met him! Date: Thu Nov 6 08:47 john (lenashusband@yahoo.com): Your love endures, my friend! So does your gentle example... (I'll never forget your moment with that crazy camel on the road in India!) Date: Tue Oct 21 07:57 Paris Hampton (Parishampton007@hotmail.com): Hey Darling, Missing you. Thank you for being my guardian angel.... Love, P Date: Tue Sep 30 02:02 Connie Naqvi (connienaqvi9@yahoo.com): There is nothing better than watching my 3 year old son jam out and sing along in the back seat to 'Window' or 'Inarticulate Nature Boy.' Thanks for such amazing music! What an incredible soul. Date: Tue Sep 16 18:42 michelle (crazymom0907@verizon.net): I would like to post a comment i didnt know this young boy, my soN was recently asked to do a voice over on a project that he would be doing the voice of young Josh in a 7 hour audio coming out ,i decided to go to his website and look around i really wish i knew him what a beautiful person and he touched so many peoples lives his music is beautiful straight from the heart, doing the voice over with my son i really felt as if he was there and i hope my son did him proud , Salvatore is only 8 but i have showed him the website and told him what happened to him and his response to me was( MOM IM GLAD I GOT TO PLAY HIM I HOPE HE CAN HEAR ME IN HEAVEN AND HE LIKES IT ! ) i thankyou all for a great website to look back on and Josh salvatore will do you proud rest my angel rest! Date: Thu Sep 11 13:58 Chris Marksbury (cmphotos@verizon.net): Listening to his music, solo disc, SPIRIT TOUCHES GROUND, right now.....it just get's better and better. He was such a unique spirit, a very special and gifter songwriter. I always regarded School of Fish as a real cool band that I expected to go further and reach more fans.....his life was brief but he left behind something, a legacy, for all to listen in and enjoy. More people should discover Josh's music. I feel that I am fortunate to have. Date: Sat Aug 30 09:16 Jeremy W Norrell (Leecruise2005@yahoo.com): Thanks Josh for the wonderful band. I can remember living next to the beach and playing that tape over and over again. Man I miss your great voice and as you can see I Still have not forgot about you. Thanks again and Miss you. Date: Sat Aug 23 05:24 Lindsay (lindsay.lipton@gmail.com): Josh, i miss you. saw a dragonfly today following our car and thought of you. i now have a little boy. his birthday is very close to yours and like you he is very special. has such a personality already. miss your smile and words. remembering sitting with you and just being. love, Lindsay Date: Sat Aug 9 05:55 David Dougherty (daviddougherty1968@excite.com): Thanx for a great band as the SCHOOL OF FISH, nothing stranger than my 3 Strange Days. Hope you are doing well. Date: Sat Jul 19 21:07 Andrea (agabby@msn.com): I wrote a poem about him and how he has effected me over the years: I WROTE A SONG THAT ISN'T REALLY A SONG I miss the music he should be making, Although I do understand why his was a life worth taking. He gave us his smile, his lines, his open hand... he was even a self-made one-man band. Yes I see all too clearly where his window led, because his music, his words, are permanently fixed in my head. I can still see him glowing in the swirling lights, that shone for him and through him for he was quite, the bird in flight, he caught the sun and gave it back to us after it was spun, into a tapestry he painted on, it brought us warmth when he was gone. He wanted to entertain us but he was here to inspire. Why then wouldn’t God want to do more than admire? him through that windowpane where he stepped outside, and took a ride where his dragonfly could not glide. So never mourn for the unfinished lines, Those songs left unsung, they will still be mine. They will keep me writing songs that aren’t really songs, For he wasn't meant to stay very long. In this backwards world he would not be bound, But I am thankful for the time we had when his spirit touched ground. You didn't you know him? You didn't have to know him to see him. All around me he stays, I hope he stays for days...and days. He told me not to stop believing, and gave me his smile worth keeping, I do wish I could tell him I've found my window, but I have a feeling you already know. Date: Sat Jul 19 20:40 Andrea (agabby@msn.com): I wrote a poem about him and how he has effected me over the years: I WROTE A SONG THAT ISN'T REALLY A SONG I miss the music he should be making, Although I do understand why his was a life worth taking. He gave us his smile, his lines, his open hand... he was even a self-made one-man band. Yes I see all too clearly where his window led, because his music, his words, are permanently fixed in my head. I can still see him glowing in the swirling lights, that shone for him and through him for he was quite, the bird in flight, he caught the sun and gave it back to us after it was spun, into a tapestry he painted on, it brought us warmth when he was gone. He wanted to entertain us but he was here to inspire. Why then wouldn’t God want to do more than admire? him through that windowpane where he stepped outside, and took a ride where his dragonfly could not glide. So never mourn for the unfinished lines, Those songs left unsung, they will still be mine. They will keep me writing songs that aren’t really songs, For he wasn't meant to stay very long. In this backwards world he would not be bound, But I am thankful for the time we had when his spirit touched ground. You didn't you know him? You didn't have to know him to see him. All around me he stays, I hope he stays for days...and days. He told me not to stop believing, and gave me his smile worth keeping, I do wish I could tell him I've found my window, but I have a feeling you already know. Date: Thu Jul 17 03:31 Garth Cormier (garth.cormier@@@@@@gmail.com): Funny how a song can transport you back 15 years. 3 Strange Days got me through a very trying summer in the early 90's. Thanks. 4 years ago I found my cassette and put it on. I was transported back to me and my buddy playing music and recording in the studio 10 years prior. I was sitting in the dark by the glow of the computer. The phone rang, and it was my dear friend that I had not spoken to in over a year. Wasn't even surprised... you are missed. ~ GC Date: Wed Jul 2 17:09 Anthony Cuthbert (ancuthbert@msn.com): I was listening to my School of Fish CD, "Three Strange Days" when I decided to search out information on Josh. I had no idea he had passed away. His music was with me throughout college, my days on the beach here in Florida listening to Three Strange Days and when I met my wife. I am sorry to see that you are no longer here making great music, but your music had an impact on people. Many fond memories! Date: Tue Jul 1 01:58 Connie (connienaqvi9@yahoo.com): To those of you who may be interested... Josh's sister, Laura, assisted me with creating a myspace profile for Josh. You can check it out at www.myspace.com/joshclaytonfeltsolo. It is certainly not professional by any means but I just wanted to do something to get his music out there. Enjoy! Date: Fri Jun 27 07:18 nicky (njcorbett@charter.net): Just felt like dropping by to say "hi" as you have been on my mind often the past few days. I miss you and whenever it gets too hot in LA (like last week,) I remember driving around in your Tbird with the heat on when it was 105 degrees because you had to run the heat so your car wouldn't overheat - TOO FUNNY! Love you. Nic Date: Sat Jun 7 05:11 Julie and Crew (JulieA388@aol.com): Hey Josh! Just wanted to stop by and say hello. "Dragonfly" is the first song playing on our newly-created family blog site. All these years have passed and you still continue to inspire us. Pancakes for all, I say! Date: Fri Jun 6 05:42 Kevin Crow (kevfishin@msn.com): Hi, I don't know if this makes a matter but years ago...about 1991 My wife and I had the priviledge of meeting the band School of Fish back stage. Josh and the gang were on a local radio station in Fresno California and taking calls. Josh had mentioned his interest in Native American culture and so I called. I told him "I heard you talking about Eskimos and thought you would be tickled to know that a huge fan(me), is Inupiat Eskimo! I told him I hailed from Barrow Alaska and yes he was joyed. He promptly invited my wife and I to attend the show that night and invited us backstage. After the show I presented him with a "worry stone" made of Jade that my mother had given to me as a boy and a video tape of Alaska. The worry stone was a stone that Eskimos rubbed between their fingers and thumb when things were difficult or worrysome thus leaving wear marks on the stone. I hope he kept it though the years and it treated him well. We miss him..... Peace my brother Kevin and Joann Crow Date: Wed Jun 4 19:42 Lisa (mityellowhat@ccomcast.net): Wow, I am shocked and saddened to find out that Josh has passed away. I have been a bit out of touch with my music since starting a family in 1997 I am really up to date on kiddie stuff though. I interviewed Josh back when Inarticulate Nature Boy was just coming out. I was working for a music magazine back then. I interviewed him at the Tradewinds in sea Bright, NJ (that place is no longer there either) He was so down to earth and friendly that the interview was such a pleasure. It was more like talking to an old friend than really doing an interview. I do have a copy of it and if the site is interested I can get a transcript of it posted. I also have the tape from the recording. I later moved to Florida and did catch Josh playing with Tori Amos in Pensacola. Anyway, I am sad to learn that he passed away but I will remember his warmth and his smile from our interview so long ago. Lisa Date: Mon May 19 15:33 Kris Doan (kbdoan@gmail.com): Just wondering how long it takes to get a CD. I ordered on the 7th and I'm in Sand Diego. Thanks, K Date: Sun May 18 18:34 Laura Clayton Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): Hi Josh... Writing to wish you a happy birthday...I'll be having pancakes in a little while here. I'll be listening to old interviews you did today that someone was kind enough to gather together and send me. I saw some of the old videos Henry talked about...just wanted to go back to that time again with new eyes. They're truly amazing. I wouldn't let him film me at the time! I love you so very much...and miss you so much always. Mommy too. Laura Date: Sun May 18 15:13 Connie Naqvi (connienaqvi9@yahoo.com): Happy Birthday Josh! Thank you for your music and your words. You have truly been a blessing in my life. Lots of love to you and your family... Date: Sun May 18 15:04 TOMMY MANZI (thomasmanzi@mac.com): Happy Birthday Josh. I think of you often but perhaps celebrite your spirit just a bit more on this day. Lots of love to you, your family and all of us whose lives you touched on so many levels. xx Date: Sun May 18 13:23 Dene Wilby (dene.w@btinternet.com): Happy Birthday Josh!!! Listening to School Of Fish right now.... Your amazing cover of The Beat's 'Save It For Later'. Superb! Wish I could have seen you boys do that one live. Dx Date: Sat May 17 22:15 Henry Felt (henryfelt@gmail.com): Hi Josh, I'm thinking about pancakes, and tomorrow's your birthday. My how I miss you. I've been playing your guild guitar. What a beauty it is. I don't think I've ever played such a wonderful guitar. I brought some old reel to reel video's to George and he had them transferred to a current format. I shot them when you were four on an Sony reel to reel video Portapak. This was one of the first video recorders you could really move around with and you are imortalized in all your four year old splenor. What a pleasure to have you saved at that age. Monday I'll be a little league supporter to one of Cathy Lilienthal Deutchman's daughters. I hope you'll join us at the field. I think I need to write more often, Henry Date: Sun May 11 00:02 Erika (yankeewriter@hotmail.com): Hi Josh, Just thinking of you... Date: Tue Apr 29 21:52 Chris Marksbury (cmphotos@verizon.net): Just wanted to express how much I loved Josh's voice in The School of Fish. I was always a fan.....I've been out of the loop and was unaware of his passing until recently. I am glad that I have this music to listen to. He left something very special behind for sure....... Date: Tue Apr 22 09:49 Julianne (AlsBarfly@aol.com): Josh, you've done it again. I've been thinking of you and your mom a lot lately, and suddenly I felt a sort of "nudge" to head over here. And what do I find but a post from my dear friend Thomas saying he's listening to another of your albums? It's strange seeing "Josh Clayton Felt Like Making a Live Record" available for download. That's one of my faves! I suppose it's a good kind of strange, since more people will be able to enjoy it as much as I do. Peace and love ... Julianne Date: Thu Apr 3 21:47 Connie Naqvi (connienaqvi9@yahoo.com): Maybe it was your spirit Maybe it was the words you uttered I don’t know But there was something beautiful about you Maybe it was the blessing of your feet touching the ground Or the pause on your lips when you felt it You made me feel it Because there was something beautiful about you Maybe it was the magic that flowed from your pen Your smile of spirituality Your words that still linger Now I know There was something beautiful about you Something still beneath you Something transcendent inside you And you made me feel it It was the beauty inside you Date: Thu Apr 3 20:35 Thomas Hassel (tt.hassel@t-online.de): I have discovered Josh a couple of years ago and listened to his album Spirit Touches Ground. Now I got hands on Inarticulate Nature Boy, which is really a revelation. It is so sad, that this talented musician died so young. Date: Thu Apr 3 00:41 Connie Naqvi (connienaqvi9@yahoo.com): Wow. You have left me speechless. Back in the early 90's I became a big fan of School of Fish. It was only a couple weeks ago that I saw one of your videos for the first time. I decided to look you up on Myspace to see what you have been up to but much to my surprise...you were not there. I had no idea that you were gone. When I found out about your passing, I was deeply saddened. Since then I have learned more about you, especially from your website. I read some of your words and I honestly cannot express how beautiful, deep, eloquent and meaningful you were. I will continue to listen to your music, as I have been for the past 17 years or so. And on your behalf, I will make a donation to Descendants of the Earth if I can find them. Josh, you will forever inspire me. Lots of love to you.... Date: Tue Apr 1 02:01 Joe Caravella (jlcaravella1965@yahoo.com): Josh I never Knew You, I Just felt you! I was working in my College radio station Passing Time between my Music Theory class & My Studio Enigineering 110 Lab at queensBorough college in NY in 1991 when across my desk came a Envelope from Capitol records,at that time they were sending me nothing but crap & I dreaded what I would Find (Ohh Please not another Poison CD I begged a person who never heard me) What I found was a CD named School Of Fish. with intersting names for songs like Deepend or Wrong & Fell, My curiosity got the best of me I took the shinny disc to the cd review room put on a set of cans & pressed play & sir You changed evrything for me then!! I am overwhelmed with sadness to find that you have passed on Yea many years after the fact. I was putting My music into my new ipod and was up to the letter S so it was time to put the first album & human cannonball into my itunes so i could put you in my pod when i started wondering what ever happend to you your band your talent I now know the answer. See your music touched me we were only 2 years seperated in age & when your album came out & 3 strange days was blaring out of our little college radio station for the rest of the semester you gave me hope that people still wanted to hear a catchy heart felt melody, that songcraft didn't die in the din of big hair & distored guitars that plagued music for most of the 80's, you bridged a tiny little gap in my life that seemed to grow more & more into an abyss with the advent of grunge. But when all seemed lost I could listen to euphoria & all would seem right in the world. I am still playing music at the tender age of 43 I never thought I'd outlive Rock Music or The Industry & i sure didnt think I'd out live someone younger than me as you were/are but now I am again filled with sadness that you beauty & music has been silenced but I am comforted in Knowing I will always have what you left behind to comfort me like a warm security blanket. Tonight when I take the stage I will sing for you I will break into 3 strange days and share you with my audiance my band used to play that song when our shows werent going well & it would bring our fans back into the good vibes tonight it is time to sing it again You are loved. God once again has got a great band I know your there with John & George & brian & Jimi & Jim and althose that passed before you 7 you are putting on a show to beat all shows. May you find peace in the clouds & in the arms of god Peace Love Joe Caravella of The band "Late Model Jesus" Date: Tue Mar 25 00:16 H. R. Kunze (kunzehairdeluxe@yahoo.com): josh what a nice dude, I worked at kinkos on ventura studio city Ca and you would come in and get stuff done for school of fish, I crashed a Dallas Tx show with a pass I had made at kinkos and you treated me like a old friend. you are still thaught of 16 years later H.R. the okie Date: Tue Mar 11 17:16 Melissa (melissa@rainingcreation.com): Hi Josh :) School of Fish is featured in the iTunes music store today... I have been totally thinking about you and seeing things all around that remind me of you. Just want to send you some love today! Date: Wed Feb 20 09:15 Mark S. (addictedstudio@sbcglobal.net): I was buzzing through Youtube, thought of the song "three strange days", and remember a friend of mine introducing it to me, and going "wow, what a catchy song...and that brings me to this..I didn't know Josh, just one the album that he and his band recorded(which I still proudly own on tape), and the rememberance of a time in my life when I first started dating my wife..and i see that you passed away 8 long years ago, and friends, family and fans still come to say hello... god, I hope I'm remembered this much. Date: Fri Feb 1 20:20 Neil Duffy (neil4duffy@msn.com): Does anybody know the song "Alone" from the Me and Will movie Date: Wed Jan 30 05:09 Bill (BNealon@aol.com): Hey Josh - saw you last night - geez it was so vivid I just can't believe it was anything else. Hope all is well and say Hi to Marylin. Thinking of you all day today. Cheers man. Bill Date: Tue Jan 29 21:31 Lindsay (lindsay.lipton@gmail.com): Hey Joshy, Thanks for the dream last week. I liked this one! I woke up feeling like you were right here with me. Eight years since you have been gone. I don't believe it. Seems like I just saw your beautiful face. I know you are watching us here. Man life has changed so much. Married to a wonderful man that treats me like a princess and getting ready for our first child soon. Thank you for still coming to visit. I miss you with all my heart and love you. Lindsay Date: Thu Jan 24 22:25 Lisa Simmons (lisanicholesimmons@gmail.com): Thinking of you, Josh...In fact, I think of you quite often and that one time I brought that Collings guitar (and those cookies from Manis Bakery) to the studio and how you played it and loved it--fond memories I have of you. I had just found out that I was "with child" before you died...he was at your funeral, too....My son is now 7 and we listen to your songs on my iPod in the car...:] Date: Wed Jan 23 20:53 Jami Lula (jamilula@earthlink.net): Hey Little Bro I am still waving at you all the time. My son Dylan who is now 5 1/2, and he would remind you of that, Ocassionally waves to you as well. I refer "Spirit Touches Ground" on many of my gigs. I say if you can't afford my CD tonight go out and buy Josh's it will MOVE YOU! I am staying on the planet for now. It is up in a whirlwind. You left at a good time and you left behind what I need to hear. A DEEP SOUL! Love and Blessings, Jami Date: Mon Jan 21 23:23 Keith (pr0gr4m@gmail.com): WOW. I had no idea that he died. Many years ago I went to a Tori Amos concert and Josh was opening for her. I was a fan of School of fish and recognized his voice right away. I didn't know who he was but I knew I had to hear more. When I left I made sure to buy his Inarticulate Nature Boy CD. I have listened to that CD many MANY times ever since seeing that concert. It has so many good songs. I was driving home last week and heard a song on XM Radio that I instantly recognized as being a Josh Clayton-Felt song that I had never heard. So today I decide to find out what it was and where I could get it...which brings me here. I'm 8 years late and several CDs short, but what a loss. I think he was a great songwriter. I've only got two albums, SoF and INB but I'm always listening to them. I hope many more people discover him and his music. It has meant a lot to me over the years. Date: Sun Jan 20 04:20 Tommy Manzi (thomasmanzi@mac.com): I hear echos of you in my mind all the time... friendship can be so short some times... forgetting is so long. We all miss you Joshua... Marilyn too. Much love on this day to everyone. TM 8 Date: Sat Jan 19 21:03 Jeff (rosenthaljc@sbcglobal.net): How strange. 8 strange years. I am sittting at a restaurant that used to be a different restaurant. Remember Red? Its now "bld." " Breakfast. Lunch. Dinner." I, on ocassion, had all three of those meals with you. I do now. On ocassion. 8 years. I think we met at 8 years old. 8 is my favorite number. Yaz was number 8. 2008. I can sit in a restaurant and write on the blog of my late best friend from my phone! What would you have thought. The "uniting" aspects of the Internet would have thrilled you. You the state of the world, not so much. I am happy. I love my job. It brings out my highest self and challenges me to maintain it. My wife is lovely and gondola-ing her way through Venice, Italy as I type, or maybe she's out to dinner. See, I just want to talk to you again. If you get a chance go help "oh Dorian" - her music deserves a chance to he heard. Just thought I'd mention it. d;-) I miss you deeply and thoroughly. Your family is sweet. I miss Marilyn. You gave her a certain freedom through your lessons of releasing fear. It is a gift we all hold in us. I love you, buddy. - Jeff Jeff Date: Sat Jan 19 17:24 Laura Clayton Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): It's been 8 years Josh...your joyful spirit is always there for me helping me to take pleasure in every moment. Also, the gentle push not to be fearful...something I need reminding about often, and whenever I bring you into focus I smile and relax. Yesterday I was imagining what it would have been like if you were still here, coming over and hanging out, and those ordinary moments not happening are heartbreaking. We'll be having pancakes this morning, and spending the day in an orange grove in Ojai...a lovely place for me to think about you today. I love you all. Laura Date: Fri Jan 18 23:24 elsa (ev): Josh, you are not forgotten. Never will be. Always sending you loving energy. I look forward tomorrow in having a peaceful spiritual day in your honor. Send my love to your mom, she did wonders for me. all ways love. x Date: Mon Jan 14 10:41 bridger (acamus1974@aol.com): ive been missing your music quite a bit lately,josh. my girlfriend heard me playing fountain last night and asked me to turn it up. i told her about you and how i got to meet you and see you play in dc so many years ago. i also found the 'save if for later' cover the band did on ebay! i cant wait to hear it again. now im on a mission to find the live album. anyway. its january. new england is getting a noreaster. and youre in my thoughts. Date: Sun Jan 13 07:16 steve perry (sperrysan@sbcglobal.net): After all the years after college, the first album stands up as a life long work. Strange, how it needed to be that way. The guitar and vocal work on this album, are introspective and well done. Subsequent recordings, solo, show the prowess of the author, but lack the polish of the big recording contract, thought the talent exists. Sadly, it cannot be harnessed or refined. Time has expired. However, the pop song, 3 strange days still gets it, and I am, into the deep end, way over my head. God bless. Date: Wed Jan 9 22:39 Rachel Noyes (noyesx4@netzero.com): I finally joined the world of ipods and for some strange reason I started with the cds beginning with s. I slid School of Fish into the computer and smiled as memories of Josh came into my head. I went for a walk today on the little island I call home and sang along deciding that when I got home I would google Josh and find out if he was still creating fabulous music. I was shocked to see him referred to as the "late" Josh Clayton-Felt and even though it was 8 years ago I find myself crying at the keyboard. I was one of the fortunate ladies to be in his life during his years at Brown. He was just starting out, playing lots with a dear friend of mine and those are even more precious memories now that he is gone. I hope to add his later music to my collection and will check in from time to time. If Chad Fischer ever comes here, drop me a note. I may have some pictures to share with family if you would like them. Rachel Date: Tue Jan 1 02:01 jamie (jfinnster@gmail.com): This time of the year is always hard for me. Josh always seem to know when a visit is needed and once again, there he was, just as I was settling in to the holiday blues. King of the Dollar (seriously!)was randomly on the radio while I was at the gym. I never hear the music but had forgotten my ipod so I was listening to the random radio selection when there it was...thank you Josh for reminding me of your awesome spirit and getting me through these hard holiday days. Give my love to Marilyn and a huge hug to my dad...please tell him how very much I miss him. Date: Mon Dec 24 22:03 nicky (njcorbett@charter.net): I was just getting ready for all the Christmas hub-bub and you popped in my mind Joshy (no surprise.) I really miss you this time of year, us all bundled up, walking in the cold air after a big meal at India's Oven, holding hands and goofing around. I hope you are looking down on my crazy life and laughing your ass off at my kids (Thing one and Thing two.) I just know you three would have been wild about each other. Merry Christmas to you and to all Josh's friend and family. Love, Nicky Date: Thu Dec 20 21:16 bridgette (bridgea@comcast.net): My mom was diagnosed with a malignant brain tumor two days ago. i came home from hearing the news from her surgeon and stood at my kitchen window staring at the trees, utterly numb. as i was watching the branches of one tree blow like crazy in the wind, two large crows flew side by side and landed on the upper most branches. they sat there, braced against the wind, fluttering their wings every once in a while to keep their balance, for ten minutes or so. i smiled and waved at them - i think i know who they were. thank you......... Date: Thu Dec 20 15:30 bridgette (bridgea@comcast.net): My mom was diagnosed with a malignant brain tumor two days ago. i came home from hearing the news from her surgeon and stood at my kitchen window staring at the trees, utterly numb. as i was watching the branches of one tree blow like crazy in the wind, two large crows flew side by side and landed on the upper most branches. they sat there, braced against the wind, fluttering their wings every once in a while to keep their balance, for ten minutes or so. i smiled and waved at them - i think i know who they were. thank you......... Date: Wed Dec 12 01:24 Reggie (iawedgie@yahoo.com): Please someone help me find "Felt Like Making a Live Record" I have been looking for almost a year. Date: Fri Dec 7 19:46 Woody Myers (woody.myers@gmail.com): I recorded Josh and his band at T.T. The Bears in Cambridge as he was touring Inarticulate Nature Boy in 1997. Josh and I became friends through a common friend, and I'll never forget the amazing moments trading guitar solos with him at a late night jam session. Josh gave me permission to record the performance on a DAT. Excellent band. Amazing human being. Date: Wed Nov 28 07:13 Laura Clayton Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): Hey Josh...Please give mom a big hug for me and wish her a happy birthday. I love you both so much. Laura Date: Tue Oct 30 16:06 Diane (dcabanaw1@cogeco.ca): Just listened to waiting to be.That is the best written song i ever heard. Date: Wed Oct 17 23:18 ljc (corb.65@hotmail.com): Just heard "Three Strange Days" on WRNR this afternoon and made a mental note to look up the band when I got home...a 'whatever happened to' internet search. Imagine my surprise to learn that Josh had passed away. I am so very sorry. I have fond memories of seeing "School of Fish" perform live in Fells Point, Md. one night. My friend and I were surprised to find Josh sitting outside the club after the show and joined him on the curb for a chat. He was humble, warm and friendly. It was a thrill to hear the band played on the radio a few months later. I remember thinking that if anyone deserved success, he did. My deepest sympathy to his family and friends. Date: Wed Oct 17 15:34 André (allbognar@hotmail.com): Hello to everyone who loved Josh ! I think I'm the only Brazilian fan around once by the early 90's was a real " hunt treasure " to find SPF albums over here. So I went to San Diego in 91 and then I bought this true gem....3 Strange Days video used to be airplayed on MTV and I was totally " speechless " since the 1st time I saw it....Then I decide to buy this fantastic album from a obviously fantastic band.....I lost my brother when he waz only 32 and I know how terrible is this " vacuum ".... Anyway, I'm quite sure they are happy to see us celebrating their lives.... Thank you. André. Date: Wed Oct 17 00:16 FWD (satuit59@yahoo.com): Thank you for the wonderful gift of your music. You live through your music, and may you do so forever. Date: Tue Oct 2 18:32 Br. Randall (deaconrandall@gmail.com): This was written for my first news letter called New Journeys - September 2007. There is a Hebrew word “b’shert” which means some things are fated. I’ve just started reading a new book titled “Wrestling with Angels” by John J. Clayton. I’m reading the “Authors Preface,” page xiii, where the author mentions his deceased son Josh. I looked up the web page given (www.joshclayton.com) where I listen to a song on the intro page and realized the lyrics to the intro song; “Waiting to Be” was exactly what this newsletter was meant to be… “cause you’re waiting to be, what you already are, you’re the only one left in your way, waiting to be what you’ve been from the start...,” “You gotta build your boat, you gotta dream your dream, and raise your sail to the wind, ride the ocean within…” This is pure b’shert!!!! What a wonderful message – thank you God for bring Josh’s message to us. With this message of hope and love, my we rejoice “being who we already are.” So, go and check out this wonderful song and say a prayer for Josh (1967-2000) and his family and friends. Br. Randall Date: Wed Sep 26 02:08 Namasteezy (namasteezy*@*gmail (dot) com): A documentary about the frauds of colonization in Southern California in the territory of the Coastal Samala people (Santa Barbara), recently called the Chumash. The story extends in time from the Mexican war and land grants denied through fraud associated with the treaty of Guadalupe Hidalgo to 1971 and fraud conducted by associates of a non profit religious corporation called "The Brotherhood of the Sun" which took land granted by Mexico to a Samala family and included a traditional hunt camp on the summit of the coastal mountains. The sound track is from the CD "Sacred Spirit", Chants and Dances of the Native Americans, an album produced by the Native American Rights Fund. Documentary Written, produced and narrated by Christopher A. Brown in April of 2,007. PART 1 http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-2422256680033020958 PART 2 http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=3992336927137922520 PART 3 http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=3337241589659150608 WEB PAGE http://algoxy.com/stolenland _________________ Can we stop doing all the things we are doing that we do not want to do while still doing all the things we need to do? Date: Thu Sep 20 17:16 m. polansky (mp6k@msn.com): Been some time since I said hello buddy, at least in writing. Listing to 'Soon Enough' as we chat. Send you big power old friend. Rock on. Date: Mon Sep 17 18:25 margaret (pogue2007@yahoo.com): I like the website for Josh.....I have a sister who is in the ICU unit now....she has had four brain tumors and now she is fighting for her son...this site helps me understand a little of how to get through the day....thanks.....I received this site from Randall. Date: Thu Aug 30 17:02 sf (afmaustin@cs.com): Strange. I was listening to Prince. Many years ago...on the summer solstice. we were camping with friends......Josh pulled out a guitar, and shredded little red coverette...acoustic.....soft, sweet, powerfull.....just thought of it randomly, and wanted to share my thanks......the music must be great on the other side......and a much belated happy birthday Date: Tue Aug 21 23:33 Chad Reyes (rexhungus@hotmail.com): Hi, I remember first hearing 3 Strange Days on the radio and next time I was at a cd store buying the album. Such a good album, solid all the way thru. I played it so much had it on rotation with Nevermind,Blood Sugar Sex Magik and other big 90's albums. I consider it to be one of the best albums of the 90s. It still holds up, to this day I still will play it from beginning to end without skipping a song. I saw SOF play in Portland Or, House Of Freaks opened for them. I thought it kind of funny that SOF was headlining over a band that had been around awhile and was also supporting an album their 5th I think. I remember one day wondering if SOF would ever record again and tour. This was back in early early 2000's and I was saddened to read up about Josh's passing. To me it was impacting not only due to closeness of age but also because of how the music affected me. Listening to a band for years, and having it with me thru good and bad times; then bam in a way its gone. There won't be anymore music; its hard it feels like somethings missing. I felt the same when Cobain died and Dimebag Darrell; people you like and listened to and who are with you thru the music they make and suddenly bam their gone, its difficult. I'm glad Josh made more music and lived a life that obviously influenced people in a very positive way. I used to be more like that and have kind of grown cynical and jaded. I have read what people have shared about Josh and it makes me want to change to live, love and smile more. To make others feel good like I used to do.To have someone you look up to be able to live by an example that you want to see in yourself. It tells me that there is hope,even in the toughest of times you can still smile and follow your own path; change is possible. TY Josh for the music you made that I got to hear, I'm so glad I got to see you live. Ty to those who made this website so I could get to know him a little bit more and to be able to share a few thoughts and memories. Sincerely, Chad Date: Mon Aug 20 02:42 tswrench (tswrench@aol.com): I always dug your music, Josh. Didn't know you were gone until just now. I was listening to "Inarticulate Nature Boy," and I thought I'd Google your name. I found your site, and I am stunned and saddened by the news. I'm going back to the music now...thank you. Date: Tue Aug 14 21:21 Steveo (stevesecor@gmail.com): would love to find more rare SOF stuff like live recording and such. Can anyone help? Email me. Date: Sat Aug 4 10:44 NUdger! (domorama@hotmail.com): Hey, Bud! I think you should have knocked before you broke into my tent on Block Island yesterday,and woke me up as a teenage green dragonfly! I I LOVE & miss you!!!!!! Sang Magda Jump off the world today while walking thru the teeming AAugust masses of BI. I never realised how incredibly appropriate your lyrics were! LOVEDOM Date: Tue Jul 24 20:57 ShayG (shay.giambastiani@bydeluxe.com): Hey all you Joshy fans! Found this awesome in studio jam with Josh from 1996. In studio interview and live songs on local L.A. radio station KCRW. Check it out! Miss you Josh Boy!!!!! www.kcrw.com/music/programs/mb/mb960424josh_clayton-felt Date: Mon Jul 16 11:06 Eric Reed (skippythefrog@yahoo.com): hello friends/family/fans of josh! it has been too long since I have read the message board here. I used to keep in touch with a few other fans - I got the latest email regarding "that thing you do!" and so naturally I began to reminisce about josh and my grand josh-related experiences in the past. it would be neat to catch up with some people from the inarticulate discussion list if anyone's interested. take care! Date: Wed Jul 4 03:32 nicky (njcorbett@charter.net): Just came by for a visit. Miss and love you. Date: Mon Jun 25 21:37 Larry Donnell (ledonnell@gmail.com): I got a promo copy of a cd single for SOF and have loved it all since. I still miss new music from you Josh. Date: Sat Jun 23 11:03 Nudger! (domorama@hotmail.com): Miss being the Gemini before you, Cha-Chi! Date: Sun Jun 10 05:50 miss melissa (melissa@rainingcreation.com): Hello sweet love --- light Thank you for blessing us with your magic I am grateful every moment... Date: Tue May 29 03:30 chris (anavrin81@aol.com): Reggie, your not the only one looking for the live cd. I've really been kicking myself for not ordering it when it was available. All i can add is just check ebay and amazon from time to time and if i find somewhere that has it available, i'll come back on here and let you know, but it doesn't look too good. -chris Date: Sun May 27 07:32 Reggie Lehne (iawedgie@yahoo.com): Does anyone know how I could get the live album? I have been looking for it for so long now and I feel more lost now than when I started. Date: Tue May 22 00:54 happyhourhero (anavrin81@aol.com): happy belated birthday josh! i didn't realize that your birthday was friday, until today when i checked the site. so its kinda wierd that after a long time i got an urge to listen to "spirit touches ground"... on friday and i have been listening to it all weekend and today. Thanks for the inspirations and happy birthday! -chris Date: Sat May 19 00:08 miss jamie (heavenlygrrl@hotmail.com): HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET BOY JOSH! I'm thinking of you and miss you... I hope you and your mom are filling up on banana pancakes! All my love, Miss Jamie in Oregon listening to "FELL" and loving every minute of it! :) Date: Fri May 18 23:34 Moneypenny (carolynp14@yahoo.com): Happy Birthday Joshy! I hope you & mom are eating banana pancakes. I miss you each & every day. Love you so much. Date: Fri May 18 22:26 Raina Scott (rainaloo@excite.com): Happy birthday Joshy. Thinking about you all day. Wish we could say hi and have a chat. Can't be there tomorrow, but I'll be thinking of you, and I am always with you in spirit. Much love that continues through the years, Raina Date: Fri May 18 21:46 Jeff (Rosenthaljc@sbcglobal.net): Happy Birthday Joshy...wish we could be forty together here on Earth. Date: Fri May 18 19:53 Laura Clayton Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): Happy Birthday Josh...we'll be celebrating you and mom with Wolf and Lisa tomorrow. George is coming here this morning. I love you. Laura Date: Fri May 18 15:04 John J. Clayton (jclayton@english.umass.edu): Happy birthday, Josh. I love you and miss you every day. You were supposed to carry me inside, but as it is, I carry you. You're some beautiful spirit, dear son. Dad Date: Fri May 18 06:44 Jeff (Rosenthaljc@sbcglobal.net): Happy Birthday Joshy...wish we could be forty together here on Earth. Date: Fri May 18 01:45 Tommy Manzi (thomasmanzi@mac.com): ÒThe rain-weeping and the sun burning twine together to make us grow. Keep your intelligence white-hot and your grief glistening, so your life will stay fresh. Cry easily like a little child.Ó HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSHUA. WE ALL THINK OF YOU OFTEN. MUCH LOVE, TOMMY Date: Thu May 17 03:20 Carol (carol@fantoo.com): Happy early birthday Josh. I'll be sure to consume many banana pancakes on the 18th. Thanks for the dream visit and the beautiful music that my little guy Max has been rocking out to as only a 2 year old can. He's especially fond of Brick House. We miss you but recognize the beauty of having your spirit everywhere now. Thanks for the many gifts. Stay close- CJD Date: Mon May 14 02:26 Laura Clayton Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): Hey Josh...Would you give mom a huge hug for me? And Nanny too? I miss you all so much. Love Laura Date: Mon May 7 04:40 Chad Fischer (chadfischer@verizon.net): Hey Josh!! I just played a Lazlo show in Cambridge last night our 3rd show in almost 7 years and what a night it was. My father got up and played violin on Ship on the Wall and my 11 yr old niece, Eliza, sang harmonies on Map of My Heart and Trampoline. Eliza discovered your music this summer all on her own through an iPod I gave her with over 1000 songs. She heard Dragonfly and was instantly hooked. She listens to Spirit all the time now and knows every word. I'm staying at my sister's house - only a mile from your old place in Brookline - and so many great memories are flooding back. Packing up the Dodge mini- van for our maiden voyage to LA in '87 - jamming with Larry in your Living room. All our plans and dreams for rock stardom laid right before us. Who knew we would come so far and achieve so much. Speaking of achievements, Jeff's wedding was last weekend, and what a uperstar he was. Your words, spoken at the ceremony, are so insightful, so inspirational - was sitting next to Laura and Steve - my heart filled with the familiar melancholic mix of pride, happiness and sadness. I'm so happy I'm in SM near your sister now. So happy I'm near my sister tonight, thinking of you and how your music and your inspiration lives on. Loving and missing you dearly. Chad Date: Fri May 4 19:32 Dave (mrshakespeare@gmail.com): Was listening to the SOF version (live) of Father Figure, and remembered the SOF concert I saw in Columbia, Missouri, in the fall of 1991 (I believe). The concert was terrific, I recall, and one of the non-SOF songs the band played was the Beatles' Ticket to Ride. It was great! Wondering if others have similar recollections of cover songs sang by Josh/SOF. An SOF album of live tracks such as those would be a great way to remember Josh in a "new" context. Just read another post and realized that Josh's mother died last year. My condolences to the family; she was a nice woman who is missed. Date: Sat Apr 7 23:27 Tim (tim@hookhousehotel.co.uk): Really sorry to find out of this tragic death today. Remember the summer of 1991, two Brits we were on a 3 month trip to USA. All in the name of gigs, gigs and gigs. No kidding, the day we landed in NYC we are at a show that evening (CBGB's Liquid Jesus and I love You) As we made it across to West Coast we had 6 weeks in Hollywood. 3 Strange Days was playing on all the Radios, that was the memory of 1991 , it was Metallica Black Album release time at midnight on Sunset. I was lucky enough to see School of Fish in Hollywood, somewhere near Le Brea/Sunset. Remember the live hook that is 3 strange days to this day, and the beautiful voice that was. RIP. Date: Wed Apr 4 17:30 Jeff Rosenthal (Rosenthaljc@sbcglobal.net): Hi, Joshy, Hi Marilyn! I'm on my way to se you both at Hillside...though I think your spirits are elsewhwere and coming to meet us all there. I'm looking out for you in all things these days. I miss you greatly and have many more words to say - but I'l save it for the live show in an hour. Peace In, War Out - Jeff Date: Fri Mar 30 04:39 Ning (tsaining@hotmail.com): hi,Josh,long time no talking to you.i am currently falling in love with a girl here in sydney,i guess she is really the one for me...i can't cherish her more...i will bring your fancy songs to her.take care josh. Date: Tue Mar 27 04:35 kristen (kristenstavola@hotmail.com): sitting in bed recovering from surgery. listening to you as i write tonight. wishing you were around, josh. missing you. missing that really great feeling that hearing from you always brought on... can't wait to catch up with you one of these days. feel free to stop by. georgie girl will let me know ;) Date: Sun Mar 25 18:10 melissa (livypool@knights.com): star doll your paper doll heaven stinks Date: Sun Mar 25 18:07 melissa (bluemoon@frosty5.wanadoo.co.uk): star doll your paper doll heaven stinks Date: Tue Mar 20 19:49 Sheri (snowbirds27@yahoo.com): Blessings to all! Just wondering if anyone out there knows the lyrics to 'Sense of Humor' by Josh off of his Center of Six album? I caught the beginning and end, it's the part in the middle I'm unsure of. Anyway, my daughter loves to sing along with it and asks the same thing. I've been wondering for a couple years now and thought I'd come here to ask. Surely someone knows. Shoot me an email. Thanx a million!!! Be well. Date: Tue Mar 20 01:00 MARK (MORRISMARKA@YAHOO.COM): IN BOSTON, A COUPLE OF DAYS AFTER 9/11/2001 I WENT BACKSTAGE WHERE I MET THE WALLFLOWERS, WHO WERE OPENING FOR JOHN COUGAR MELLENCAMP. I SAW MICHAEL WARD AND APPROACHED HIM. I HAD SOME AMBIVALENCE, NOT KNOWING IF THE SPLIT OF THE BAND HAD BEEN AMICABLE....BUT I BROACHED HOW MUCH I LOVED SCHOOL OF FISH, AND ESPECIALLY JOSH'S VOCAL STYLE. I ASKED IF HE HAD KEPT IN TOUCH WITH JOSH, AND HE TOLD ME BRIEFLY WHAT HAD HAPPENED. I WAS STUNNED, SHOCKED, SO VERY UPSET IN WAYS I CAN'T DESCRIBE. HEARING ABOUT AN ICON OF MINE PASSING, IN THE WAKE OF THE 9/11 TRADGEDY...I WAS STUNNED. I MISS JOSH, BUT HE HAS LEFT A LEGACY FOR ME THAT IS HIS BEAUTIFUL MUSIC. Date: Sat Mar 17 22:01 mark (maz00@comcast.net): Josh - Never knew or heard you live (except on the live CD, of course) - but your music from S of F onwards has brought me many hours of comfort. The truth is I miss you through your music. Only wish you were still with us... Date: Thu Mar 8 03:09 Sharon (s.smith197@my.wci.edu): I was watching music television a couple of nights ago (not MTV but music available through cable). 3 Strange Days played, and one of the facts shown was that you had passed away in 2000. I felt in shock! I remember seeing School of Fish in concert in 1994 or 1995. I immediately joined the fan club and began receiving postcards from you, letting me know about the bands split and your solo career pursuit. I have always loved your music and have actually turned several people on the School of Fish, who might not have listened otherwise. I am without words (and if you knew me, you would understand how amazing it would be for me to be speechless!). Some of my fondest memories are tied into School of Fish songs. I dedicate "Speechless" to you, as I truly am speechless. I hope to hear your beautiful voice again in the next life. Date: Mon Feb 26 06:17 lelle (lellelutts@gmail.com): oh josh! today has been a super interesting day. i have been flooded by memories of you, just flooded! from seeing you play in school of fish in cincy and columbus to walking with you down newbury street years and year and albums and albums later. wow! i just can't help but smile. you bring me such amazing joy. you are missed with an everlasting longing, but you are loved and cherish and alive in more ways than i can express in words. thank you for the memories. i wonder why today, but i'll take them and as always, i'll use them as the inspiration that they are. Date: Mon Feb 19 05:50 Rich (gaadzoox@comcast.net): Josh, Your wonderful music has touched me more then I could have ever immagined. That night, It was just you and a guitar followed by just Tori and a piano. I will never forget that night. I am in touch with spitiruality and love the messages your songs offer. They mean more and more to me as each new day begins. Thank you so much. Date: Sat Feb 17 00:58 nicky (njcorbett@charter.net): Hi Josh: Was thinking of you today - for many reasons. I miss you. Dream soon please... Date: Fri Feb 16 21:12 Jose (jj319@hotmail.com): I really miss your voice. Sometimes I think I can hear the simplicity and clarity in other singers but nothing compares. Good stuff. May you always be happy. Date: Sat Jan 20 06:25 Moneypenny (carolynp14@yahoo.com): It has been far too long my friend. Seven years, but it feels like ten times that. I woke up this morning thinking about the time we got lost in New Jersey for two hours. Such a funny night, with Uncle Steve in tow. Wow, seems like ages ago. Even though I am sad today, and I miss your physical being, I often feel your presence in many beautiful ways. I am so very grateful for that. Thank you my love, for continuing to be a glorious light in my life. I miss you and your sweet smile. Good night, my friend. I love you. Give mom a big hug for me. xo Date: Sat Jan 20 04:13 Jeff Rosenthal (rosenthajc@sbcglobal.net): Been too long, bro. Too long. Had a great b-fast w/ Sam, Laura and Chad. Gotta be honest, it's been rough down here...and good to, if I am being straight with myself. I need some strength from you, kid. Theresa is having a wee surgery on Monday and my sister has to have a delicate operation on an aneurysm near her (perhaps in ) her brain. Just doin' what I can to keep everyone's fear at bay - wish you were here to watch "The Secret" with me - ah, but you lived it, didn't you? So much more to say...we need you here budy. HEY WEBSITE! Love to Gia and Dan's family - Congrats Lindsey Lipton!! Love you Henry - Tommy - David A. and DENE. Thanks for it all...Peace In, War out!! Jeff Date: Sat Jan 20 02:45 Henry Felt (henryfelt@gmail.com): Josh, This Piano is learning to be. I miss you and your wisdom...so come visit Croton-on-Hudson or Beacon. You will always be my brightest star -- Violets Forever. Date: Fri Jan 19 17:11 Tommy Manzi (thomasmanzi@mac.com): Josh, I woke up this morning and immediately thought of you... I find myself becoming more & more astonished with how quickly time passes and yet the connection I feel with you never seems to fade. I can't tell you how many times during the course of the past seven years that I have thought of you, and how those thoughts always bring warmth to my heart & soul. I miss you. We all miss you. Yet through the melancholy moments, the is always a strong sense of gratitude and thanks for what you have given to us. I am thinking of you now, with that kind smile on your face. Much love, TOMMY Date: Fri Jan 19 16:00 Laura Clayton Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): Hi Josh...it's been 7 years since we've been on this earth together...I know mom's there with you now...I'm glad you have each other but I miss you both constantly, yet feel so connected to you both constantly as well. I love you both forever and ever. Give Nanny a big hug for me. Laura Dene...I was so touched to see the new intro to the site with all the beautiful photos, and "Waiting To Be". I love that song too, and it's a pleasure to be surprised by something new. You have created a place on earth for me, and for all the people who love Josh to go and visit him, to spend time in his company, and also to hear from each other. You have given us all an incredible gift. My mom would go to the site every day, it was so important to her. I go to the site most days myself. There's a great sense of comfort in that. I'm truly grateful to you for what you've done, and are continuing to do. With love and best wishes to you and your family, Laura Date: Fri Jan 19 01:08 Dene Wilby (dene.w@btinternet.com): Hey Josh. Well, it's the 19th January on this side of the pond so I just want to type a quick note. Hope you like the new intro I made for the site, I picked 'Waiting To Be' because it's one of my all time faves. I love that song. I thought about giving the site a makeover but know how much you liked that groovy blue background so I think it should stay. I was just looking through some old e-mails and saw this from 19th December 1999 "Dene, ok so I send the email to you, take pain pills for my back and pass out. I wake up the next morning and it's like Christmas, the web site is filling the stockings and the tree is fully stocked. Well Santa thank you, I was very happy and very impressed. Thank you for comming through in such a big way again." well, it was always a pleasure, you never took advantage and was always so very grateful when I had put some new stuff together. So thank YOU! I was in Amsterdam with Michael in the Summer, he had Pizza Pancakes!! Sweet pancakes with cheese and pizza toppings! tasted good, i'm going to have some this Saturday when i'm over there again. I'll pancake toast to you my friend. Anyway, I miss you but will always be grateful for the fact that I met so many wonderful people through you. Your Mom was very very special and she is so missed. I love getting my New Years card from Laura every year and the occasional message from George. OK, I need some sleep, i'll be listening to Deer In The Headlights on my iPod while I doze off. Bye for now. Dene x Date: Fri Jan 12 03:20 Laura Clayton Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): Last night I went to an art opening at the Billy Shire Gallery in Los Angeles of work by David Anderle. The paintings are wonderful...compelling insightful portraits and lush landscapes, but the reason I'm writing about it here is that there are 2 paintings of JOSH! David Anderle is the legendary A&R executive who signed Josh to A&M records. When he left A&M he decided to pursue his lifelong dream to paint fulltime. He felt so connected to Josh that he was inspired to paint him twice. You can type in these URLs to see the paintings: billyshirefinearts.com/07Anderle/dragonfly.html and billyshirefinearts.com/ 07Anderle/josh.html. Or, even better, you can go to the gallery and see them in person! I'm glad you're visiting this site! Josh's sister Laura Date: Sun Dec 31 14:43 Yuji Kawai (axaxcx@yahoo.com): When I reserched his name on yahoo,,,I was really amazed this news ,,He was passed away about 6 years ago,,,My dad died last week,so I feel sincronisity about it.I still listening his music many times and remember his smile and his positive vibes,Thanks natureboy forever, Date: Thu Dec 7 00:35 Lindsay Lipton (lindsay.lipton@gmail.com): Hi Josh, I miss you. I am getting married really soon now and hope you can drop by and spread that all that love. Ah Yeah!!! Love you, Lindsay Date: Thu Nov 30 20:14 Robert (riddlewoodfarm@aol.com): sitting at my computer at work for the US navy, usually listening to U2, Pink Floyd, Verve, Alice in Chains, Secret Machines, Soup Dragons and of course School of Fish and Inarticulate Nature Boy. Your music lives on, thanks Date: Sun Nov 26 04:50 Gia (petoonya@aol.com): Dearest Josh - My Mom unexepectedly passed away this week. I hope you'll seek her out and give her comfort. Dan, my sister and I are playing Dragon Fly at her celebration. You are still so loved by us. We talk about you often and think about you even more. Thank you for everything you continue to give. Date: Tue Nov 21 14:12 Ning (tsaining@hotmail.com): Dear Josh, now i am listening to your "Dragonfly" and i guess i really can't get ou t of my memory and your music......for past 6 years and i guess it keeps going forever.Miss u,thanks for everything u brought me. Date: Wed Nov 15 16:06 miss melissa (melissa@rainingcreation.com): sweet josh... I just want to thank you for being a constant inspiration in my life... I was very fortunate to get a copy of inarticulate nature boy from an old friend, and after 2 weeks I still have it playin in my car :) You have given me so many divine gifts and I am forever grateful! I feel your presence in everything and it reassures me, comforts me and lifts me up beyond the dullness that life can sometimes portray. Anyway I love you and just wanted to share with you today :) namaste sweet prince Date: Mon Oct 23 21:45 Rob (robl@aol.com): Saw School of Fish at Irving Plaza in New York and Josh was incredible live. There used to be a music video channel on Time Warner Cable where people would call in and pay to see videos. My friends and I had a hookup to get in on a free line and used to play King of the Dollar over and over again. A great talent sorely missed. Date: Sat Sep 2 06:41 Eric (thatcrazyguy.downthestreet(at)gmail.com): I'm not sure how often these pages are checked anymore but I'll give this a try anyway... Were there ever any official transcripts (tabs / sheet) of Josh's music released? Some fo his stuff is fairly complex to figure out, especially the timimg of his picking. I would love to learn his music, but some of it just doesn't naturally flow from my ears to my hands... Thanks in advance. Eric. Date: Sat Sep 2 03:09 Jeff (Rosenthajc@sbcglobal.net): Josh and Marilyn - Time o work your magic for 22 year-old Red Sox Southpaw, Jon Lester. Diagnosed with Anaplastic Large Cell Lymphoma...he pitched a game earlier this August that was highlighted by the mysterious base running exploits of a wounded black crow...so I know y'all know what I'm talking about. Love you - miss you! Jeff Date: Sun Aug 27 21:30 Rob (robweaver@comcast.net): I have a flat autographed by Josh and if anyone want's to own it or know anyone who is than contact me at robweaver@comcast.net Thanks Date: Mon Jul 31 17:45 Nichole (Coaleecole@yahoo.com): So Saturday I was randomly talking about you again, then low and behold...yesterday when I turned on my car...THERE YOU WERE! I started thinking about you, all of your facial expressions, your smiles, my little statue of the Hawaiian God of Love in your mouth and other memories that just made me smile! You will always be beautiful shinning star! I miss you! Love you, Nichole Date: Mon Jul 31 10:12 John (rasterlove@yahoo.com): ...looked at some pictures from our trip to Prague and Delhi... If I saw the broken nihilist in you when we made the clip, I would have been more intrigued by your peace...Your life and death are convicting... I miss you and your spirit! John Date: Thu Jul 27 07:53 nicky (njcorbett@charter.net): Just scanned down and was shocked to hear of Marilyn's passing. She was a warm, sweet and special woman. My sadness is only tempered by the image of Josh's big smile waiting to meet her. My deepest love goes out to all Josh's family and friends. Date: Thu Jul 27 07:40 nicky (njcorbett@charter.net): Hey Doll: You gave me the best birthday present ever - a beautiful visit from you!! Thank you. I miss you terribly. xoxo p.s. The new album is done - tee hee... Date: Wed Jul 12 10:32 Alex (ciao_e_el2006@yahoo.com): I will never forget you, you will always be a part of my world :) Date: Sat Jul 8 21:06 guido (guido-): HIHGH JOSH I JUST LOVE YOUR MUSIC Date: Thu Jun 29 07:31 Lisa (CameronCrazie4@sbcglobal.net): I heard Josh's song 'Too Cool For This World' on the radio one night and I couldn't get the song out of my head. The song popped into my head again tonight and I looked it up and was lead to this website. Its a shame this talented artist died at such a young age, but I guess what I'm trying to say is that his music still lives on and its reaching many people. What a beautiful singer and songwriter. I'm glad I had the radio on that night. Date: Wed Jun 21 05:45 Mitch Davis (mitchelljd@yahoo.com): Well, it's been even more time since Josh's passing and it remains sad for his too soon departure the living world. I have most of his cd's and material and love listening to some of it every now and then. Josh was truly talented and really is someone to not be forgotten. Please help keep his songs alive! dont be afraid to let people know about his songs. now if only some artists would cover his songs and help them attain even more fame. hey perhaps someone should create a myspace page for him. and we all can signup as his friends. Date: Mon May 29 17:07 Sheri (snowbirds27@yahoo.com): Blessings! I wanted to share a beautiful vision that Josh sent to me on the night that his mother passed to be with him. I have shared it with Laura and felt that Josh would want me to share it with all of you to present the knowledge that thre is a heaven and that we will all be reunited with one another as we are on the earth. I was born with a tremondous gift from God to see people as I sleep. It was always people before they would pass or as they were passing. I used to run from it as I thought that it was a curse, but only now I am truely learning how to appreciate it and acknowledge the signs and messages that I receive. After finding out about Josh's passing I had the most blessed honor of getting to know Marilyn through email. She was the most amazing woman I ever had the chance of 'not' meeting. The words that she offered to me always brought such a light to my heart and sould. It was inexplainable, really. It had been a few months since I had talked to Marilyn and had wanted to drop a line just to say 'hi' but I never got a chance. Then on the night of April 4th as I slept I saw Marilyn sitting with her head tilted slightly to the right and her eyes closed as if she were sleeping. Behind her was Josh with his head resting on her left shoulder hugging her so tightly with the biggest, warmest smile on his face. The vision was short, but immediately when I awoke I started to pray for Marilyn (as I know that is what God needs from me, to pray for those He shows to me through visions). I want to contact Marilyn to see if she is OK, because I know what these visions bring. I figured that Marilyn may have not been feeling well or was having a situation that needed prayed for. It would be two weeks before I found the time to email her. I recieved an email back from her husband telling that she passed peacefully, on April 4th. I know that God is using me to help those who are greiving, and I just feel that this is something that should be shared with all of those who loved both Josh and Marilyn. They are together and happy. At peace as we all will be one day. They are still very much here around those who love them and will always be. Just wanted to share. Have a Blessed day. Date: Mon May 29 16:58 carol (carol@fantoo.com): Like all of you, I am sad to hear of Marilyn's passing. I imagine there was excitement within her to meet up with Josh again. I trust there is much laughter and singing on their cloud. Josh - everytime I read about the "ooey-gooey rain forest" and the dragonflies that bat their paper thin wings I think of you. I am warmed by this site everytime I visit. Say hi to max when you can! Much love and light to you and your family. Carol Date: Mon May 22 01:20 Julie and crew (JulieA388@aol.com): Josh, Just came by to say Happy Belated Birthday. I read of your Mom's passing and was so surprised and sad. I'm so glad though that she is with you and you are both at peace and happy and have no more pain or sickness. My Dad is up there too (He passed on Apr. 20th, 2006) and I hope you all are getting to know one another and enjoying some good pancakes. Love always, Julie and crew Date: Fri May 19 16:13 miss melissa - pixiesparkles13 (melissa@rainingcreation.com): Happy Birthday Josh! I woke up this morning with a smile as I remembered your birthday! May LOVE and LIGHT embrace you and your beautiful mommas! Namaste Date: Fri May 19 10:16 Raina Lee Scott (rainaloo@excite.com): Joshua! Happy Birthday my Dear! I guess I'm an hour off, but you know that I'm a late owl and am in my prime right about now. I miss you. I miss your mom too. I went to a sweat with Wolf and Lisa on Monday, and I felt you there so much! The first time you brought me to the sweat lodge came back to me so clearly, what a special night it was, you were so kind and caring with me. I felt I had found home... I never wanted them to open the flap! I am so glad we experienced that together again this lifetime. I think of you all the time, and have been calling on you to help me a lot lately, so thank you for everything that you are doing from where you are. You are still so close. I love you. Jai Baba. Raina Date: Fri May 19 05:38 miss jamie (heavenlygrrl@hotmail.com): HAPPY BIRTHDAY sweet josh! For the past few years i've sent marilyn a little card wishing her warm wishes & love on josh's birthday... i came to visit the site today & i've just learned of her passing. it is comforting to know they are at peace & together now. i am very sad... my sincere condolences to all of marilyn's family & friends. she was always so kind to me via email & notes. i'm so sorry that we never had the chance to meet in person. with love, miss jamie. Date: Fri May 19 05:31 Henry Felt (henryfelt@gmail.com): Dear Josh, Today I was filming in Ames, Iowa. And all day long I'm writing 5/18/06 on little stickers as rolls of video are running thru the camera. And each time I'm thinking of your birthday. I was told two eagles were flying outside. Just hearing that made my heart soar. I assume you and Marilyn are saying hello. Having both of you on the other side is hard -- so come visit as often as possible, I'll always be looking for you both. Miss you, miss you, sababa, Henry Date: Fri May 19 01:26 TOMMY MANZI (thomasmanzi@mac.com): HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSHUA... and please give a big hug to Marilyn for me. I am thinking of you, as always... but especially today. Thank you for your friendship and for all the good vibes over the years... Lots of love, TOMMY Date: Fri May 19 00:19 Laura Clayton Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): Happy Birthday Josh...please give mom a great big hug for me, and nanny too. I had the closest thing to banana pancakes I could find this morning in your honor. Hope you and mom enjoy the flowers...I'm so glad your earthly selves are resting next to each other...lovely to be able to visit you both there. Love from all of us...Laura Date: Thu May 18 23:55 Elsa (elsa.vigil@bartlit-beck.com): I was completely in a state of bliss today knowing today is Josh's birthday. That is until I read the messages on the board. My heart goes out to all those who LOVED Marilyn. I thought about her today and recently, thinking about how I need to say Hello and how I would really love to meet her. I have never met Marilyn, but when Josh passed away, she was kind enough to comfort me with love during his passing. I've met Josh a few times. I wouldn't say we were close or anything, but he knew who I was and maybe in Josh's eyes since he was so loving, would consider me a friend. But no matter how much or little we talked, there was something special that drew me to him. Now I know it was his spirit, because he was a loving soul. When I heard of Josh's passing, I was completely heart broken. Marilyn played a major part of the healing. I've been thinking about her with thoughts of finding time to express my appreciation. Although I never met her, she will never be forgotten in my life. I am sorry that I didn't find time to stay in touch, but she and Josh were always in my heart and always will be. My prayers go out to the family, friends and all love ones, May Peace Be with You All. Happy Birthday Sweet Josh, you are never far from my thoughts. Marilyn, thank you for sharing and spreading your love, you will be missed greatly. I will never ever forget you! Love you both deeply. Love Elsa Ps: something took place last month that I couldn't understand what it meant. But I believe it was a spiritual beautiful sign. Thank you! Date: Wed May 17 22:33 Chris Richards (chrisr@nethere.com): To say that I'm shocked and saddened by the news of Marilyn's passing is an understatement. As recently as the middle of March we corresponded concerning the C.A.N. Walk For Autism. As courageous as I know she was, she never let on that she was Ill. In fact, her concern was with properly crediting my friend Matt for her pledge. Although we had been out of touch for some time, she was in my thoughts quite a bit over the past few years. My condolences and prayers go out to her family. My prayers are with the memory of that courageous spirit that is Marilyn. Date: Sun May 7 10:37 drama (domorama@hotmail.com): anyone?. . . .? ....Bueller???? Date: Fri May 5 13:19 DOMinic (domorama@hotmail.com): DID ANYONE ELSE WATCH THE WINTER OLYMPICS??? Date: Wed May 3 04:41 Van (pgvanriper@rcn.com): Last time we really talked was a couple weeks before you left college. We were hanging out and you said "Yeah, I'll teach you how to play the guitar." A few weeks later, you were packed up in a minivan and on your way to California. Seemed impossible at the time. Then, when I saw you again in DC about 4 years later, it was tough to connect -- lots of Hollywood and music scene to form insulation, seemed like. A few short years later, a short visit at Chad's, and then poof. Always hoped to catch up for real. Maybe someday. Date: Sat Apr 29 00:10 Gwyn (mvwriter@cox.net): Dear Laura, For two weeks I've been trying to fit words together to express to you my sadness at your mom's departure and my sincere wish that the emotional journey you must be on right now isn't too painful. I'm glad that so many others have written so eloquently and I hope that my sentiments are worth the space they take up. Here goes: Your mom has a gift that I'm sure she's still using--the ability to make people feel loved and welcomed and accepted. She passed that on to you and to Josh, and in turn, you both passed that along to the rest of us. I will never forget the first time I met you and your mom at the Knitting Factory and how you made me feel like a part of the family. I will never forget the first time I listened to Spirit Touches Ground and felt the warmth of Josh's lyrics. He got IT and tried to share it with the rest of us. You and Marilyn made sure that happened. This community, this world! is a better place because Marilyn, Josh, and you are in it. We work, strive to live productive lives, deal with the frustrations of the day, and with some luck, add value to the human race. But what life is really about is love and acceptance of others. Where we all try, you, Marilyn, and Josh succeeded. Everyone who has written on this site and I'm sure hundreds of others out there have all felt the love and welcome that I did. So thank you, Laura. Thank you, Marilyn. Thank you, Josh, and thank you to the extended Clayton-Felt-Stahl-Rosenthal-Wahpepah Family, and to all the rest of you passing on peace, love, and acceptance and doing so much for so many. I'm so sorry I couldn't make the benefit last night. I WILL be there next year. The podcast is wonderful! With much love, Gwyn Date: Thu Apr 27 20:48 Jamie (jfinn@amgen.com): Sweet Marilyn...I was so tickled when Josh made his presence known to me as I "passed through" town last week. I've never seen a crow before where I live and it grounded me again. Now I know Josh was bringing me the message of your passing. You fought so hard for so long...I am comforted to know that you are with Josh and in peace. Thank you for so much love and advice over the years. I am going to miss our email conversations more than you can possibly imagine. I know your spirit, like Josh's, will remain with me, especially when I am as one with nature during my adventures. Someday I will have the answers for all those questions we raised. George, Laura, and family...my heart and prayers are with you. With much love, Jamie Date: Thu Apr 27 11:55 Sheri (snowbirds27@yahoo.com): Hey all - I've shared this 'vision' with Marilyn's husband and Laura and know that Marilyn touched so many other lives with such positivity and grace that I wanted to share it with each of you as well. Now I hope you all take this as a message and not some girl with illusions. I was born with a gift from God to be able to see people as I dream both those who are preparing to pass on and those who have already passed. I have not heard from Marilyn in months and have felt so guilty over life getting in the way of just even saying 'hello'. Three weeks ago as I slept I saw a vision of Marilyn. She was sitting with her eyes closed. Josh was standing behind her with his arms wrapped tightly around with the most contented and compassionate smile on his face. Immediately I woke and prayed for Marilyn. I knew of these visions before and to pray for the person so I knew that Josh wanted prayers for her. I wanted to contact her that day, but as I said, like had it's busy grip on me. Yesterday I finally grabbed a moment and emailed her with the vision hoping that all was well with her as I could not stop thinking about her with concern in my heart. I was shocked beyond words when her husband emailed me back and told me what had happened - three weeks ago. I share this with you all because this vision was meant to let everyone who loved Marilyn to know that she is very much at peace and that Josh is very much with her. In her time of need he was right there holding onto to her knowing that they were about to be reunited. I feel extremely blessed to not only have gotten the oppourtunity to know Marilyn as I did but to have been a part of being asked to pray for her as her time on earth transpired into the Heaven we will one day share in. *Marilyn - I thank you for all your amazing words to my soul. You were such an inspiration to me in more ways than you were ever able to know, but I know now that you do. I will miss our emails but now that now I can communicate with you as well as Josh through the signs of nature for you may have left the earth but you are still very much around for all to love. Blessings to all - Sheri Date: Wed Apr 26 18:34 Laura Clayton Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): I just finished listening to the podcast Renee put together honoring Josh, with information about Descendants of the Earth and the benefit at the Mint this Thursday (April 27th)...it's really beautiful, and documents some wonderful stories about Josh. I feel as though Renee and Jeff and Chad (who speak on this podcast) have taken on some of my mom's effort in keeping Josh alive for everyone. It is very much appreciated. I know this would mean so much to my mom, and it means so much to me. Love to all of you who have been writing in and sharing your experiences about the ways in which Josh has touched and touches your lives. Thank you for helping to keep him present. The link for the podcast is:http:// leftcoastpodcast.com/ Date: Wed Apr 26 02:19 Rob (rcdesousa@comcast.com): Hey Josh. Alot of changes going on in my life. Think of you alot. Looking forward to the dragonfly visits in my back yard. Miss ya dude! Date: Tue Apr 25 16:52 renee stahl (reneefromparis@yahoo.com): hey hey it's renee we did a special podcast on the left coast podcast this week with jeff and chad to share music and stories about josh ..have a listen leftcoastpodcast.com or go to itunes.. go to podcast and in the search window put in left coast let us know what you think of the interview by sending feedback or by putting a review up on itunes thanks for listening.. Date: Tue Apr 25 00:47 Eric Reed (skippythefrog@yahoo.com): I'm saddened to read about marilyn's passing. I wish I would have done a better job of keeping in touch with her. marilyn first contacted me many years ago after seeing me post on this message board because she wanted to thank me for being a fan of josh's music. I shared with her little antecdotes of my encounters and conversations with josh. she remained in touch, and there were several occasions when I would receive surprise packages in the mail from her. sometimes it would be several copies of his CDs (with a note asking me to promise to give them out to friends and spread the word of josh). sometimes it would be a press kit or other materials and collectibles. I never asked for these things. she was just such a very sweet woman with a kind heart and great sense of humor. in her last email to me, she asked how I came up with my email address. I regret that I never gave her an explanation. I'll explain now, as perhaps my words will still reach her. many years ago, while working at a cafe, a friend of mine, who happened to be hosting open mic night, informed me that he had forgotten his notebook. he always opened open mic night with a reading of something he wrote. so as to not spoil tradition, he asked me if I had anything he could read. I didn't, but told him to give me ten minutes and I would write something for him. ten minutes later, without knowing what he was about to recite, he stood in front of the audience, and read the following aloud in a british accent: "There was once a frog (with dreadlocks). He was blind and he wore dark sunglasses. He didn't talk, either (but then, most frogs don't). His name was Skippy, but he was no hippy (because most Skippies are hippies). He lived in Bob's throat. He liked to embarrass Bob. Although Skippy couldn't talk, he was a very noisy frog. He would ribbit a lot. But his ribbits didn't sound like most frogs' ribbits. After all, Skippy was from Jamaica (hence the dreadlocks), and what most people don't know about Jaimacan frogs is that their ribbits very much resemble a human belch. And since the human throat is very much like a tunnel (we've all yelled in tunnels when we travel through them on freeways), his "ribbit" became very loud. Well, you can imagine how embarrassed Bob would get, especially when most people wouldn't believe he had a frog in his throat (literally, not meaning he had a sore throat, which is usually what the term is used to mean). Well, there isn't much point in this story. There's no plot. It's just a matter-of-fact. However, there is the story of how Skippy became blind, fled from Jamaica, and ended up in Bob's throat, but as you can see, there is no room left for that." *the page ended here* hilarity ensued, and that frog has haunted me ever since. I hope you enjoyed, marilyn! Date: Tue Apr 18 20:21 Michael Roybal (mikemanley@prodigy.net): I just want to say that I can`t believe that Josh passed away! I didn`t even have any idea.I came to the website to see if they may possibly touring.I am 40 years old,and was and am still a fan.I will NEVER forget a time in Las Vegas Nevada(where I have always lived),School of fish were playing at a place called The Huntridge theater.This used to be an actual movie theater,and was pretty small.This was durring the tour for thier first album, and three srange days was on fire.I couldn`t believe that they were playing at such an itimate venue.I was standing in the lobby with my gilfreind at the time and I couldn`t believe my eyes when I looked over, and standing by the bathroom was Josh! I couldn`t believe how he would just be right there in with all of the people who were fans.Anyway, not one person seemed to notice who he was.Well I went up to him and I told him that I thought that School of fish was fantastic and that I loved his singing.Well, just about this time, two very good looking girls( who clearly were fans and had just then noticed him) came up and started talking to him.I couldn`t blame them but they did interrrupt me while I was talking to Josh.I understood because hey,he is the star.I COULD NOT believe what happened next.All of a sudden ,Josh put his hand up tward the girls to silence them, and said to me"Thank you for being here it means allot.Is there anything else you want to talk about?)I was BLOWN AWAY at the attention that he paid to me.He could have easily ignored me to talk to those girls, but he made it clear to me and to them that I was important.That was MANY years ago, but I have never forgotten his kindness.He clearly was a man who had an apprieciation for others.I am very sad to here of his passing.I just found out today(April18th,2006. Date: Sun Apr 16 01:46 Yo Soc (yosoc2@yahoo.com): I've read so many comments from others, I have finally decided to write my own. I was a huge School of Fish fan. I saw them at Missippi Nights both times they were in St. Louis. I remember how disappointed I was when Josh and Michael went their seperate ways. When Inarticulate Nature Boy came out, I felt something was missing....Michael Ward. Years went by, and times with me changed (your own kids will do that to you). I've been listening to School of Fish, and it has brought back many great memories. Many of the songs are timeless. I've searched on the web and found this website. My wife can't believe the hours spent just looking over everything. All that I read and the bits of music from Spirit Touches Ground I listened to has caused many reflections of my own. Needless to say, I am waiting on my CD to arrive soon. Yes, I will always be a die hard School of Fish fan. Now, I want to be a fan of Josh. If anyone is interested, I'll update when I get a chance to listen to all of the songs. Date: Tue Apr 11 22:43 Lindsay (lindsay_lipton@yahoo.com): I was taken off guard as I went to the website and saw the news about Marilyn. This is a shock. I last spoke to her about a year ago. I did not know she was sick. My regards go to her family and friends. She was such a sweet woman and has such an incredibly beatiful soul. Much love to Josh and Marilyn Lindsay Date: Mon Apr 10 21:24 Scott (rollerscott@gmail.com): Love and comfort to Josh, George, Laura, Henry, Josh's Dad, and everyone who was lucky enough to be part of Marilyn's world. I wasn't sure what to do. Then I played "Center of Six", which made sense. And thought "Marilyn's with her baby." I hope they're flying around and having a blast. It was truly my pleasure to know this beautiful women. Everyone take care... Date: Mon Apr 10 17:18 jeff (rosenthajc@sbcglobal.net): Marilyn, Graceful, kind and loving, Marilyn - You sweet sweet friend. I will miss you here on Earth soooo very much. Yesterday was sooo very sad and beautiful and joyful. The two crows that you and Josh sent to meet Chad and I mde me feel safe and connected again. I love you both so uch and miss you to the core of my being. There is a lost seventeen year old boy up there named Kyle William Shapiro. He arrived by mistake the day before you did. Please take care of him. He loves the Red Sox and his little brothers and the Cape and music and he needs guidance. He left his family in a lot of pain. Thank you for your gifts of love to me you are beautiful people. Jeff Date: Mon Apr 10 17:17 Jeff (rosenthaljc@sbcglobal.net): Marilyn, Graceful, kind and loving, Marilyn - You sweet sweet friend. I will miss you here on Earth soooo very much. Yesterday was sooo very sad and beautiful and joyful. The two crows that you and Josh sent to meet Chad and I mde me feel safe and connected again. I love you both so uch and miss you to the core of my being. There is a lost seventeen year old boy up there named Kyle William Shapiro. He arrived by mistake the day befolease take care of him. re you did. He loves the Red Sox and his little brothers and the Cape and music and he needs guidance. He left his family in a lot of pain. Thank you for your gifts of love to me you are beautiful people. Jeff Date: Mon Apr 10 11:05 BobW (wyaduck@aol): Got the news about Marilyn Saturday night, then heard of the memorial service on Sunday, once it was too late to attend. My heartfelt condolences to family and friends. I've been thinking of Josh and Marilyn all day, as well as their loved ones. It's interesting how large a part Marilyn played in helping us all get through Josh's passing, and now Josh will make her transition an easy one. Like the rest of you, I have that image of the Great Reunion. Peace and strength to the family. She wasn't here long enough, but she sure made her time here count. Love, -Bob. Date: Mon Apr 10 08:07 renee stahl (reneefromparis@yahoo.com): hi josh your prayers came true.. as your mom was peaceful on her way to be with you in the spirit world love you naynay Date: Sun Apr 9 02:39 Marilyn R. (bering30@hotmail.com): It all seems like just yesterday; all of it. Tears, smiles and love, Marilyn and Charlie Date: Sat Apr 8 16:11 kristen (georgie.girl@comcast.net): Josh: So sad to hear about your mom's passing. What a lovely, sweet and incredibly strong woman. My deepest condolences to your family. Alas, you guys are together again, somewhere. Much love, Kristen Date: Fri Apr 7 12:05 dominic (domorama@hotmail.com): Mar, just so you know the fourth of April is my mothers' birthday, for whatever that's worth now. She will be very saddened to hear of your departure . . . don't worry I'll show her how not to be. Thank you for everything you brought into my existence! LUVD Date: Fri Apr 7 11:58 dominic (domorama@hotmail.com): Aww Mar . . . You put up such a grand facade when last we spoke. I had no idea! Guess that last visit was a li'l more than just a few tests. I always wanted that leading role in any of your plays. . . Josh is gonna have to fill in for me again. I am very sad, but I know you wouldn't want me to be, so I'M NOT!!! WOW! Please give your boy a slug 4 me, after you mother him like cuhrazey!!!! Will continue with the Olympic long jump music violation investigation as per last we spoke, even more so now!!! (Am I the only one who saw it)???? Sorry I didn't get on that Green Line sooner! Yankees fan after all! LOL LOVE U MUCH! dOm Date: Fri Apr 7 05:49 Lisa Gregorian Glassman (lgglassman@aol.com): Dear Josh and Marilyn, Two beautiful beings together again in spirit. With love, Lisa Date: Thu Apr 6 23:28 melissa - pixiesparkles13 (melissa@rainingcreation.com): My heart goes out to all of you - beloved ones... http://www.mayyoubeblessedmovie.com/ namaste Date: Thu Apr 6 21:39 George Lukas (gl@cs.umb.edu): I am beyond sadness in telling you that Josh's mother Marilyn Felt passed away on Tuesday. She died peacefully after a long bout with cancer during which she maintained as nearly a normal lifestyle as possible. Few people were told or suspected that she was ill. Marilyn died in her sleep with her family around her and Josh's music playing. Date: Thu Apr 6 20:24 Dene Wilby (dene.w@btinternet.com): I always struggle to express what I need to say on this board but Marilyn, you truly were one of the nicest people I have ever met. A truly wonderful lady who I will always remember and be grateful for having the opportunity to get to know. Please say a big HELLO to Josh for me. My little Joshy says hello too. Dene x Date: Thu Apr 6 19:41 Julianne (AlsBarfly@aol.com): My heart's with all of you, everywhere. Yes, there *are* two who are very happy now. Date: Thu Apr 6 19:18 Paul (pkschwarz@verizon.nte): We are all so saddened at this latest tragedy. Our hearts are with both Marilyn and Josh. Date: Thu Apr 6 04:47 Chad Fischer (chadfischer@verizon.net): Hey buddy - we're all here together thinking of you and your family with heaps of love in our hearts. Chad Date: Wed Apr 5 16:42 Henry Felt (henryfelt@gmail.com): Dear, Dear Josh, It's time to sing duets. Enjoy. Henry Date: Wed Mar 29 18:07 Baraja (Bravebrass@yahoo.com): All I can say is "AWESOME" work!!! Date: Mon Mar 27 19:07 elsa (ev): Sweet Sweet Josh Till this day, with all the new music and artists available, your voice still comforts my sweet soul. I MISS you terribly! Thank you for being there.. I love you. Elsa xoxo Ps: "it's sooo hard walking forwards in a backwards world".. SO TRUE! You were so ahead of your time, Josh. Date: Wed Mar 22 16:13 melissa - pixiesparkles13 (melissa@rainingcreation.com): Dearest Josh - Just wanted to send my love and gratitude for the divine birthday present!! Thanks to your mommas too! I am sooo happy! Namaste Date: Sun Mar 12 09:48 NUDGER! (domorama@hotmail.com): WTF????????? Date: Sat Mar 4 10:20 Dom (Domorama@hotmail.com): Is there anybody out there? I sure that M.W.'s still PAYing attention. Would love 2 know! Date: Fri Mar 3 11:34 NUDGER! (domorama@hotmail.com): Oiy, Cha-Chi! Did you tell NBC that they could use close to 30 seconds of "Jump Off The World" for the Intro montage of the long jump? I sure as hell hope so!!! 'Cause it ran chills down my chills & was so perfect! As long as you agree with those ( they) who are enjoying your fee! I love you kid, and think of you often! Recorded 16 songs in 4 days, and thought of you often! The Muther@#&@^@$ Olympics Beyotch!!!!! I hope you took notice! LUV, NIC Date: Fri Feb 24 20:08 Lindsay (lindsay_lipton@yahoo.com): Joshy, you were played on KROQ last weekend. It was so wonderful to hear your voice. I miss you and love you terribly. If you have time, come visit me in my dreams. Lindsay Date: Thu Feb 2 08:03 Trevor (spacearcadetrev@aol.com): Your song "What good is heaven" is by far my most favorite song i have ever heard. I was so happy when I found that cd at the used cd store that day. Thank you so very much.I love the school of fish, but oh man this song does it for me Josh. Superbighugs! trev Date: Thu Feb 2 06:30 Rob (reminisce_with_us@yahoo.com): Right on Bryce. I listen to Human Cannonball alot. It never gets old to me. Date: Sun Jan 29 04:13 Bryce (y2kbassist19@hotmail.com): I popped in Human Cannonball the other morning in my car and just kept it playing for about 3 days straight as I was going to and from work. It truely is a classic. It grew on me over the years. I was lucky, I found the cd about 8 1/2 years ago in a cd shop in the cut-out bin for 3 bucks. believe me, it's worth much more than that to me. I heard "Broken Arm" a couple weeks ago for the first time and that's what got me back into listening. I hope eventually that Michael will release a B-sides, demos, rarities, live disc of SOF. Date: Mon Jan 23 16:47 kristen (kristenstavola@hotmail.com): in all these years. i just couldn't do it. i've gotten this far before... hell, i've gotten so much further, and then i just hit the delete button and i watch as all the little letters evaporate and go bye-bye. you've never left my heart. not once. i guess i've spent the last six years convincing myself you're still in ireland getting all sorts of confused driving around the countryside. songs falling into your lap, bonking you on the head. i listen to the old tapes you used to make me. and all the post cards.my god the phallic post card collection (smile.) i came across them the other day. it was a little strange when i realized it was jan. 18. and then it wasn't... a few hours later is was midnight. i had this revelation and decided to take a page from your book and i embarked on a cleanse. i want to reboot so i can get some good work done. i finally took your advice... started writing. much happier. sorry i was so stubborn, but so were you. you taught me more than i can ever really thank you for. i miss you. always. and georgie sends a woof and a big lick. Date: Fri Jan 20 08:20 Money Penny (carolynp14@yahoo.com): I love you, my dear friend. You are forever in my heart and soul. xo Date: Thu Jan 19 18:24 Carol (carol@fantoo.com): Hey Josh- I hope you are dancing through the universe tonight. Our new baby Max listened to all your songs before and after birth - his first words may be "open up the window" and he is already quite fond of dragonflies. Look in on us when the spirit moves you. With love and light, Carol Date: Thu Jan 19 12:30 Elsa (elsa): Hiya Sweets.. Thinking of you.. I don't know why I've been fortunate to feel your spirit as of the last few months, but I love every moment that you give to me. Thank you for the guidance in the path I am heading.. couldn't have done it without you. December 17, 2005 will always be a special day for me.. THANKS Sweet Josh. Love ya! xoxox Elsa Date: Thu Jan 19 09:48 Henry Felt (henryfelt@gmail.com): Helloooo Josh, It's noon here on the Hudson River and Sally called to ask if I've had my pancake breakfast; not exactly on my diabetic diet, but once a year is just fine. So come by. I think you'll really like it here. Miss you, think of you lots, sababa. Henry Date: Thu Jan 19 05:25 TOMMY MANZI (thomasmanzi@mac.com): Look as long as you can at the friend you love, no matter whether that friend is moving away from you or coming back to toward you... Josh, you touched all of our lives in a very special & meaningful way. We miss you. xTM Date: Wed Jan 18 21:41 Pat (sababa.baby@gmail.com): Can't believe it's been 6 years since you moved on. Pancakes are on the morning's menu. You're invited. Sababa baby Date: Sat Jan 7 12:33 eric (anothervelvetmorning@juno.com): human cannonball is and will always be a classic every time i put it on. thanks for the memories, i can assure you that they'll never be forgotten. Date: Sat Jan 7 06:21 Bob (wantstoride@comcast.net): I have always been a huge fan of the first School of Fish album. I am trying to locate a guitar transcription book for this album. Does anyone have any ideas where I may find one? I have had little luck on the web so far. If you have any clues, please email me at wantstoride@comcast.net. Thanks, Bob. Date: Sun Jan 1 17:48 Laura Clayton Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): Hi Josh...I miss you so much. I've learned so much from you in the last 6 years. Thank you for always being there. I love you. Laura Date: Sun Jan 1 15:39 Julie (JulieA388@aol.com): Josh, Just stopping by to say hello. We had a bunch of your songs on last night to ring in the new year. You are so missed. Julie and crew Date: Sun Jan 1 01:02 Mark (mark088@excite.com): As this New Years passes your voice is there to carry so many on..... God-Speed Josh! Date: Fri Dec 30 09:15 Henry Felt (henryfelt@gmail.com): Hello Josh, This is a hard time of year for me, and it's six years since it was a hard time for you too. But I keep thinking Sababa baby, everything is cool. I'm living in Beacon now...so i look forward to a visit. Henry Date: Mon Dec 5 01:26 Amber-Rain (ambey18@aol.com): Wow.. it's interesting when you find an old cd that you used to play over and over again.. and then wonder what happened to that artist.. where are they now.. and you look that beautiful person up.. and you find out that they are no longer in body.. but have moved onto the spirit world where the glory of the power they owned inside can be set free. Oddly enough my friends, and i, laid to rest our dear friend Jack yesterday. He died of cancer last week. Guess i find my solace thur music.. and here i am looking for the music that brought me peace around the time that i met jack. Same time i met Josh. What an amazing person.. I remember how inspired i was by him. He just glowed up there on stage. And was such a sweet and humble man when we spoke. All my prayers to you Josh.. look down on this crazy world with Jack.. and send us good vibes. Peace and love to you all, Amber-Rain Date: Fri Dec 2 07:41 melissa - pixiesparkles13 (melissa@rainingcreation.com): Amazing Josh - I just found you - due to a number of interactions with others, until I met Jami Lula and he sang Waving for us in the teen room at Mile Hi Church, in Colorado... I have since collected all your music that I can find. I feel such a deep connection to you - Josh. And though I missed my opportunity on this physical plane to connect with you, I feel we have met before and will again. I also know that your "spirit is in everything". I am so grateful you came to share your song... So much truth, light and inspiration - I find in your words and melodies. I find myself waving at flowers and trees :) sayin Hi Josh! Thanks for blessing us with your divine light. Namaste. Miss Melissa. Date: Wed Nov 30 15:49 Easter (jameseasterbradford@yahoo.com): My nose has a cold And the winter, so bold, to assult and devour my insides Never rain into snow Never knowing I'd know of a time when you wouldn't be by From a curl at the ear To a princess's tear It was all I could do not to weep So I'll leap with the wind and I'll cover and share And at last I'll know you are asleep... Date: Tue Nov 22 21:40 Brynn Capella (sdradiochick@hotmail.com): I remember when I heard the news on the radio...I couldn't believe it. Did they really say that Josh had died. He was so young and so talented. I was so lucky to have met Josh. He played at our radio station holiday concert back in '96. In the midst of all these rock star egos, here was Josh willing to do whatever we needed him to do. The band, who was suppose to go on first refused to go on that early. And while everyone was yelling at each other backstage trying to figure how to solve this problem, Josh simply got on stage and started playing for the audience. I know that doesn't soound like much. But it truely showed who he was. I have these pictures form the day at the radio station with us laughing and hanging out on top of the station van...everytime I look at them they bring tears to my eyes. He had such a good soul and made everyone around him feel special. He is truely missed. Date: Mon Nov 21 21:01 jeff (rosenthaljc@sbcglobal.net): Miss you, pal. Need your mojo this holiday. Love you soooo much my brother. Jeffy Date: Fri Nov 18 06:47 Sheri (snowbirds27@yahoo.com): Blessing to all! I just wanted to put out a post to let everyone know that I have been contacted regarding the 'Felt Like Making A Live Record.' I want to thank both Shay and Tony for contacting me, wishing to share the gift of Josh's music. It really does touch my heart deeply and (as I have said in emails to you both) reaffirms my faith that the kindness of strangers does still exist. To know that through the music and words of someone so spiritual, we can be brought together into friendships. It is through this sharing of both his music and his soul that we can keep his spirit alive. Again, thanks guys!!! To everyone else, take care and be well. Date: Mon Nov 14 20:34 nicky (njcorbett@charter.net): Hi Josh: I haven't had a visit from you in a while - sure could use one. Like some many here, I think of you every day and am touched by the light and sweetness you shared with us all. Especially when I am quiet with my babies, I miss you big time! I wish you could have shared this part of my journey with me from the earthly plane. Love you. Date: Fri Nov 11 15:12 Cip (cip@itsalldowntown.com): Whoever reads this must love Josh and so I thought you'd appreciate this. I came across Inarticulate Nature Boy about 3 years ago. It wasn't until today that I found out that I became Josh's fan years after he had passed. His music was not posthumous to me, it was, and IS, very much alive and vibrant to me today. I just litened to Paint The Tree Green and had to look up this "Clayton-Felt" guy on the internet because I love his music so much. That CD has become a soundtrack to many important parts of my life over the last three years and has touched me. I just thought that you would want to know b/c his body may have passed but his spirit and music are very much alive. I never got the chance to meet him but I'm thankful that he was here. God Bless cip Date: Sun Oct 30 16:05 Sheri (snowbirds27@yahoo.com): Blessings to all. I am leaving a message hoping that someone may be able to help me. I, unfortunately, tried to purchase the 'Felt Like Making A Live Record' too late. They are all gone. If ANYONE has an extra copy they would be willing to sell, or knows where I may find one could you please email me at the address above? I will keep an eye on ebay, but thought that perhaps someone here may be of some assistance as well. Thank you very much and have a WONDERFUL day! Date: Sun Oct 23 10:36 Rob (rmcghee@jesuitcp.org): I fell in love with the song "Fell" when I was in college and my band was still together. We used to cover that song sometimes. So it was in my head the other day and I decided to record it for myself - at home, on a simple 4-track. Today I got out my old Human Cannonball CD, which I have never given the listen it deserves, and was playing it. Decided to try to find out something about School of Fish on the web. Now, like others, I am digesting the news of Josh's death, years after the fact. I feel a sense of sadness, but also a kind of painful-beautiful realization of a lot of things: the shortness and preciousness of Life, the beauty and realness that music adds to it, the importance and value of our music and our lives - and the relative unimportance of whether our actions, lives, and songs become well known by millions, deply loved by a small circle, or played by and for ourselves in small rooms. I never knew Josh, but his music was, and is, a part of my life and music. I hope and believe he is in a beautiful place. Rob Grapevine, Texas Date: Fri Oct 7 11:16 Fiona (miaowlicious@hotmail.com): I was just listening to my 'school of fish' cd and thought 'hmmm I'll go and check out what Josh is up to these days' obviously I'm feeling really shocked right now. I first discoverd SOF in 91/92. They supported Crowded House in Cambridge (U.K) (the night of my 21st bday) and I fell in love with them. I found out they were playing some gigs at clubs in London (U.K) and I went to them all. I got to meet them all at each one and I still have my autographed cd and my vinyl singles etc. I was so into this band. I played their cd constantly. I took my friends to one of the gigs and they met the band too. My friend Bet tripped Josh up as a joke and he smiled at us and we (being typical girls) thought he was gorgeous. I travelled around America in the June of 92 and I was so excited when I found a SOF demo cd in a shop in Santa Monica. I never got to see them again after that (how I wish the net was around back then). I bought their 2nd cd and only found out they'd split up when I recognised Michael Ward in a Wallflowers vid on mtv a while later. I still have snippets of SOF vids that I taped off MTV. I was so excited. I got sick that same yr (92) and was ill for a lot of my 20's. Following SOF round London is one of my happiest memories from before getting ill. I'm really really saddened by this news. Hope you're in a good place Josh. Fiona xx Date: Wed Sep 21 14:50 Lindsay (lindsay_lipton@yahoo.com): thinking about you Josh. Miss you and love you. Date: Mon Sep 19 10:43 John Gluth (umpascuba@yahoo.com): I was deeply saddened to hear about Josh, although I didn't learn of his passing until 2 years after the fact. It seems so senseless and tragic... Anyhow I met Josh back on August 21, 1996 in Charlotte NC. At the time, I was working at a local record store when this guy came into the store and began checking out our goods (such as any person does as they enter a record store). After about 10 minutes of searching, this guy holds up a CD and asks, "Why is this CD only $5.00 ?" I quickly retorted as any wise-cracking clerk would do and said something to the effect of, "Well, it could be one of a few different reasons. It's either a promo, it could be overstock and we're pricing them low to move them, it could be some unknown artist, or it could just suck." Well, the patron and I began filibustering about music there in the store when he finally says, "That's my CD, that's me." I quickly rebuffed and dismissed his remarks thinking that this guy is delusional. He later tells me that he is here in town doing a show and they comp him tickets to every venue but he doesn't know anybody here in town, and he asks me if I'd like to go to the show. Me thinking that this guy is just pulling my leg, I said sure...why not. He told me where the tickets would be waiting for me at and then he left the store. I, at first, dismissed this because the guy in the store *somewhat* resembled the picture of the guy on the CD cover, but not exact. I thought that I have nothing to lose but gas so after work, I grabbed a bite to eat and then I left for Ovens Auditorium. I reached the "Will Call" window and tell them my name and sure enough, there were 2 tickets for that evenings show. I was astonished, to say the least.... 6th row center, awesome seats (I still have the ticket stub too) Tori Amos was the main act and Josh was opening for her. (I'm not a huge Tori Amos fan so I was not too excited to go and see her) Josh came out, just him and his guitar, and he did an acoustical set. It was PHENOMENAL ! I still remember when he played "Soon Enough", I still get chills thinking about it. He played for about 45 minutes and then Tori came on and did her thing. I was just blown away by Josh though. He was amazing... The CD he asked about at the record store being $5.00 was a promo copy of "Inarticulate Nature Boy". In retrospect, I should have gotten him to sign the CD while he was there in the store but I at least own the CD that Josh handled and that we debated over. I may have only had a brush with him throughout the course of his lifetime, but he left an impression of a caring free spirit who would bend over backwards to help someone else out, even if he knew that person or not. He was kind and generous and he seemed like the kind of person that would be a great friend. I just wanted to share that with you guys..... Josh, you may be gone, but the memory and the music will live on forever. Thank you for touching my life........ John (Charlotte NC) Date: Thu Sep 15 11:15 KENZIE (kenzierey@excite.com): I became a School of Fish fan @ the age of 18 in 1991. I like many others, have spent much time listening to Josh's words and music. I am still an avid listener of School of Fish, and Josh's solo cd's. His music has touched not only my life, but my friends as well. Josh seems like he was/is amazing and I wish he could of stayed longer. I heard "3 strange days" on the radio, I wondered if there was a website up dedicated to Josh. I'm glad it's here, & I wanted to thank Josh, his friends & family for the amazing website. :-) Date: Sat Sep 3 14:06 Kristen (belismakr@hotmail.com): Seven years after my high school graduation, I'm just now starting to put together scrapbooks with all my pictures and mementos. The other day, I was going through some stuff from my junior year and I found a little piece of paper with a personalized signature from a singer named Josh Clayton-Felt. In the fall of 1996, two of my friends dragged me to a Tori Amos concert in Melbourne, Florida. As it was kind of far from our hometown, we got a room in what we later learned was the same hotel in which her entourage was staying. After the concert, we found ourselves riding the elevator with the man who had opened for Tori, Josh. I remember that he was so very kind. We chatted, he gave each of us autographs, and then we parted (he was only staying a few doors down the hall from us). So, when I found this autograph years later, I wanted to search online to see what he was up to these days. Imagine my shock and sadness. But reading about this life and even his tragic death, I feel very grateful that I got to meet him. He holds a special page in my scrapbook. Date: Wed Aug 31 13:11 Eric (eric_lawyer@ml.com): Good afternoon. I have been trying to figure "3 Strange Days" out on guitar for ages! Does anyone know where I can find guitar tabs/sheet music for this or any other School of Fish/Josh Clayton-Felt songs? Thanks to Josh for his vision & thanks to the other fans for proving how timeless his message is! Date: Thu Aug 25 09:46 Dene Wilby (dene.w@btinternet.com): Excuse me but this is just a test. Dene Date: Sun Aug 21 09:11 Mike Boyer (mike@ohiostaterealty.com): This is one of the best albums I have heard. Dragonfly is amazing. Date: Sun Aug 14 10:27 Rob Schuster (rob9c1@yahoo.com): I saw School Of Fish in 1991 at Mississippi Nights in St. Louis Mo. The performance sonically and visually made a great impact on me. I bought the cd and probably listened to it EVERY DAY for a good year or more. The music touched me on many levels. Every time my life seems to be faced with trials and tribulations I have turned to this cd. In fact, it even inspired me to play in my own band. I would think to myself from time to time how I wanted to write Josh and ask what the lyrics to some of the songs meant and what inspired the songs. Many of the songs always seemed to apply to my particular situation. Josh passing is a great loss, and I regret waiting too long to contact him and ask about the lyrics. Date: Thu Jul 21 09:38 Scott (rollerscott@gmail.com): howdy....so i'm on a train (we know where this is going, don't we?) from Barcelona, Spain to Malaga (southern coast of spain)....a 12 hour ride, with amazing farmland, waterfalls, towns, and everything inbetween. At one stop, a very stern lady sat in the seat beside mine, and would glance bitterly my way if anything of mine passed over the imaginary line that divided her space from mine. Right as i'm starting to think "Gosh, what a ....", i see the little kid (about 3 years old) who is in the seat in front of mine looking through the space between the two seats, sticking his tongue out, laughing and in general just wanting to play. So of course we did. Very happy time. Of course, i thought of "Kid on the Train". And when he finally fell asleep, i dug out my i-pod and played it ("Kid.." and the acoustic version of "3 strange days"), watching the fields blur by. Thank u. Date: Wed Jul 20 20:05 Cliff Truesdell (clifftruesdell@yahoo.com): So strange. I was just about to search the Internet to see if I could find a copy of "What Good Is Heaven" my favorite of Josh's songs. For some I figured I'd check out the message board first. And there it is available on iTunes (Thanks Marilyn!) I haven't been able to get WGIH out of my head for a few days now. I guess I'm not the only one who needed to hear that song right now. Date: Sun Jul 17 07:50 Marilyn (marilyn@talkingcloudrecords.com): Josh's family here. We're happy to tell you that four of Josh's songs, songs as yet unreleased or now difficult to find, are available for digital download. They are available now on iTunes until August 9, and after that on other digital sites as well. The songs are "Goodbye Green World," written and performed by Josh and Michael Ward in 1989 on their very first School of Fish demo; "Broken Arm," written and performed by Josh and Michael around the time of School of Fish's Human Cannonball Album; "What Good is Heaven," once available as an Inarticulate Nature Boy demo B-side, written and performed by Josh and Larry Goldings on Wurlitzer piano with Lily Hayden on the violin; and the School of Fish hit "Three Strange Days," in solo performance by Josh, opening for Tori Amos. This last has been available on the Live Album, but we're sad to say that CD is going out of print. We hope you enjoy the songs! Your caring means a lot to us. Date: Mon Jul 11 17:52 ze (thekayakhouse@hotmail.com): I miss your voice Date: Thu Jun 16 10:14 ShayG (wavecowboy67@sbcglobal.net): Good morning Josh... thanks for the visit last night. I was working on a video montage for a first grade class video, and I decided to use "Kid On A Train" for the music. It looks awesome! Thanks Josh..... Date: Tue Jun 14 08:02 Matt Born (mattborn@comcast.net): Josh and I were pals in grade school. Cambridge Friends School. Mid/late 70s. I drove by his old house on Mt Auburn street the other day which brought back some memories. I was saddened to hear of his passing a while back. But I take some comfort in the postive impact he clearly had on people with his music and his character. Godspeed Josh and thanks for the fun times in our youth. -Matt Born and the entire Born Family. Date: Sat Jun 11 13:00 josh clayton (joshclayton_19@msn,com): sorry to hear this you have my deepest sympathy Date: Fri Jun 3 19:49 TV KID (fortyseventhpanthers@hotmail.com): I saw Josh and School of Fish in St. Louis, MO back around 1991 with a couple of friends at a tiny club near the Mississipp River. I bought the CD the next day, and I still have my concert T-Shirt from the show. All I can say is he was one the best song writers I've ever seen, heard, and followed. He's missed and my friends and I still talk about that show and we probably always will for years and years. That's saying something. Few people in the world are remembered that way and leave an impact like that on persons life. I was truly saddened about hearing of Josh's passing, but to his family and friends all I can say is that he is remembered and his music is still being heard and discovered by people around the world. Thanks Josh for all your great songs. Euphoria still takes me back to a time when I was young and everything was fun. I didn't even know Josh, but his music sure made a difference in my life. Date: Wed May 18 17:28 miss jamie (heavenlygrrl@hotmail.com): hello everyone! happy birthday sweet josh! we all miss you! i hope everyone enjoyed their pancakes this morning...yumm... :) take good care! with love miss jamie salem, oregon Date: Wed May 18 15:04 Elsa (elsa.vigil@bartlit-beck.com): Happy Birthday dear Josh: Thinking of you today and sending good vibes to all that love you. xoxoxo Much Love, Elsa Date: Wed May 18 11:25 Money Penny (carolynp14@yahoo.com): Happy Birthday my sweet friend. You are ever present in my heart, and continue to inspire me my highest self. There is truly not a day that goes by that I don't think of you. It is amazing to me that your beautiful spirit continues to grow in all you have touched. I love you, my little chachi. Money Penny xo Date: Wed May 18 09:04 Jeff (rufhausen@sbcglobal.net): Joshy - happy birthday week to us. Am I really asking your help again? You know it. This world tests my resolve every day, and I'm still "Waiting To Be" but I get closer all the time...I'm off for pancakes. I love you my brother. JEFF Date: Wed May 18 07:02 Jill (mary987@hotmail.com): Happy Birthday Josh. I'm listening to "Beautiful Nowhere" this morning and rediscovering what a great record it is. Thanks for the music and for the memories. -Jill Date: Wed May 18 06:31 Henry Felt (felt@feltco.com): Happy Birthday Josh. You are always in my head, but it's so nice when you are in my dreamworld as well. Fortunately that world is active and you show up many times. Wolf and Lisa made a Dream Catcher for me. Beautiful and powerful. It will help us keep in touch. Be Well. Date: Tue May 17 22:58 TOMMY MANZI (tommy@umbrella-group.com): Happy Birthday Joshua. Your words and music continue to touch me and teach me. I think of you often with love in my heart and a smile on my face. Lots of love, TOMMY Date: Tue May 17 13:32 jamie (jfinn@amgen.com): Just wanted to wish you an early happy birthday, sweet JCF. Thank you for helping me understand what is really important in life and in keeping it real. I am awed at how much I continue to grow at the result of your presence in my life. As you once said, there really are no limitation in our life, eh? Sorry I could not be at this year's benefit but thanks for hanging with me on my e-ticket ride through the Nasty Grade in the morn- was that not some awesome scenery! And thanks for throwing that song in there as I rounded the last mile. I loved that! For your birthday, I will eat pancakes and listen to my fave music in your honor. I miss you, my friend. Jamie Date: Tue May 17 11:01 eden (edenwillow@yahoo.com): hi josh, its been a while...just wanted to write because i was flying home the other day and listening to beautiful nowhere, and the cloudscape was so amazing! i was thinking that you were probably enjoying it too. missing you, eden Date: Tue May 17 03:06 Marilyn (Marilyn@talkingcloudrecords.com): Dear ones- to celebrate Josh's birthday tomorrow, webmaster Dene Wilby is going to post a piece Josh wrote called "Lesson of the Rainbow". Check out "Words from Josh". And in the coming month we're going to make available through digital downloads, with the help of Redeye, two Josh songs that are going to become hard to find. One song, with kind permission of co-writer and co-performer Larry Goldings, is "What Good is Heaven". The second, with kind permission of co-writer Michael Ward, is the solo version of "3 strange Days" that Josh did when he was opening for Tori Amos. Check out the "News" section in a few weeks, and we'll tell you how to access them. And let us know if there are any other Josh songs that are not available on his albums that you'd like to see released. Enjoy birthday pancakes! Love keeps us together. Josh's Mom Date: Mon May 16 09:58 Laura Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): Hello everyone! I am seeing if I can type in a message using Safari...I couldn't before, but now it seems to be working. Thank you to everyone for all your love and support...it makes such a huge difference to us. Josh's life seems to grow and reach further with every person we hear from. With love...Laura (Josh's sister) Date: Thu Apr 28 16:10 Lindsay (lindsay_lipton@yahoo.com): Hey Joshy, Sitting here at work and remembering what is important in life. That is something you taught me. I miss you more than ever and love you with all I have. Date: Fri Apr 22 23:49 marilyn (Marilyn@talkingcloudrecords.com): I just got news about this year's Josh Clayton-Felt Memorial Earth Day concert to benefit Descendants of the Earth, and I want to share it with you: Saturday, April 30th at The Mint, 6010 West Pico Blvd (between Fairfax and La Cienega), L.A. Doors open 7:00, Show starts 7:30. $20 Donation. There will be a silent art auction. Scheduled to perform at the concert are Donna Delory, Renee Stahl, Leslie King, Don Mackenzie, Stew Boss, and other special guests. Jeff Rosenthal will be Master of Ceremonies. For more information call 805-677-4075. Every year the Benefit concert has been a great event, so I hope you'll come and enjoy it. Date: Wed Apr 20 03:50 Erika Schwartz (Mistral19@aol.com): Hi Josh, Every once in a while something will make me think of you, and it's strange, because I didnt know you that well, but whenever something nudges me in your direction, I can always feel you there.. I know you are happy, and just keeping a fond eye on the rest of us. Thanks for that. Miss you. Date: Wed Apr 13 12:24 Kyle Smeback (Smeback22@msn.com): Ive been reading the entries and I can see most of the people on here are friends or relatives of josh's. looking at what an impact his music (which ive just hear recently) has had on me in the last few weeks as a person and as a musician, and also seeing the documentary on his life and his ups and downs along the way and how he touched everyone he seemed to come in contact with, i feel kind of ashamed that its only the music that makes me aware of his existance. I've lost a friend to a car crash and i know what its like when your driving back from the hospital passing people left and right and no one knows about the person you held so close. I wish i could hear more of what he had to say and I'm happy that you guys pressed on even after he died so that people like me can be reached by the music that he created. I'm proud to own his cd's. Thanks, Kyle Date: Thu Mar 24 14:41 Danielle (allolovey@yahoo.com): It has been a long time since I have written.....I just heard Take Me Anywhere on XM/Ethel (that station is the best, they play so much SOF!) and I thought I would check in to say hello! Date: Tue Mar 22 19:38 Sheri (snowbirds27@yahoo.com): Blessings to all! Does this happen to anyone else besides me? I never had the opportunity in this life to have met Josh, but I feel a spiritual connection with him. Those little 'signs' that you get when you think of a loved one who has gone Home - those happen with Josh. I once came across a story of how he found an injured crow in the street and took it to an animal hospital. A few days later, I came across an injured baby bird that had no nest in sight, and I took it to an animal hospital. On the way home, I thought of what Josh had done with the crow, and how awesome it must have been to get that close to a crow (I am a huge lover of all animals, especially crows), when at that very moment of thought, my eyes happened to wonder upon a telephone pole and at the very top was a crow. It was the only one in the area. Then there are the times when I am outside walking and listening to his music, and I will have a dragonfly land right beside me. Mind you, I have not seen a real dragonfly since I was a kid. Now, I see them when I think of him. I do not believe in conincidences. Things in life are destined to happen by a higher power. We are all brothers and sisters sharing a common bond of unity through love. And after reading how people see dragonflies when they think of him, makes me wonder if his spirit is actually stopping by to just say 'thank you' for being a fan. I dunno, I probably sound crazy, but am I alone??? The best of blessings and love to you all. Date: Sun Mar 20 20:30 Brian Tremain (brian_tremain@yahoo.com): Just picked up Human Cannonball again because my friend that I loaned my old copy to won't return it (can you blame him?). Josh, your music is a treasure that I keep rediscovering over and over. In an age of commercialized, dispensable music that will leave no imprint on the face of time, your work continues to speak to me, regardless of circumstances or the passage of years. With children of my own now, it is a privilege and source of joy for me to see my 4-year old daughter and my 2-year old son dancing and singing along to your voice and music. Still in "Euphoria" after all these years. Thank you Josh. You are deeply missed. Date: Fri Mar 18 02:17 BMASE (bm@ventureform.com): And life goes on.. And on.. Time is flying fast.. Listened to your album on my ride up to Mammoth a few weeks back... I played my favorite songs over and over again... Always great to hear your voice... Keep an eye out for my love and make sure she is warm and safe.. I know you do and I thank you for that.. Lot's of love - always... Date: Sun Mar 13 21:18 Robert Caetano De Sousa (rcdesousa@comcast.net): Hey Josh. Haven't been on the site in a while but your music is still an inspiration. Musically I've finally completed my little home studio and it wasn't complete without hanging up some of the promo posters I have from the Inarticulate Nature Boy Tour. You signed them vibes, vibes, vibes. The area where I live is also very wooded. I always look forward to the summertime because when I'm outside in my backyard playing ball with my son alot of Dragonfly's come around. They always bring a smile to my face. Date: Mon Feb 28 20:25 Jr. (thehuntes@tcinternet.net): Josh, Just wanted to say hi. I found "Spirit Touches Ground" again. My wife brought it to me at the hospital. I forgot all about this CD and it was like visiting an old friend. As I was lying on the bed with my 2 1/2 yr old daughter lying next to me, we listened to this CD and she enjoyed it. It is one of the good things I get to pass on to the next generation before I leave. Gotta rest, medicine's got me worn out and tired. Take care wherever you are. Hopefully I won't see you too soon. Peace Jr. Date: Fri Feb 25 19:17 SteveD (gatorsd@comcast.net): Josh, I have been thinking about you lately. I wanted to connect with you in hopes that the words on the page reach you where ever you may be. I miss you buddy. your friend and tourmate. Big Daddy. Date: Thu Feb 24 16:22 Julie and crew (Juliea388@aol.com): Hi Josh, Just checking in... Missing you as much as ever! Julie and crew Lexington, SC Date: Tue Feb 22 15:16 Mike (Mike@johnkeiser.com): I just found this cd where I work. Im a garbage man - I can't believe someone threw this out. I guess it brings new meaning to 'one man's trash is another man's treasure'. I listen to few albums in their entirety, and this one I listened to twice back to back. Really good music. Im not familiar with the artist or his previous works, but will explore this site to order more. Thanks. Date: Sat Jan 29 15:51 Kim (kimbermccoy@yahoo.com): ...I didn't finish. I'm so sorry. I hit enter by accident. There is more of Josh that came through in the reading. Michael, the medium, asked if Josh has blue eyes because he was looking at someone with blue eyes there. The name Frank came up, which I can't relate to. Michael said there was an east coast feel with this. Then Michael asked me, "Do you like Native American stuff?" I said that was Josh. He said Josh was showing me a Native American behind me and introducing me to him. He was a Guide or acting like a Guide. Josh said that this is the "draw", the "drumming" to his music. Josh was relaying that we are all connected and explaining how sometimes you don't get to connect with someone you have a kindred spirit with...maybe you knew the person in a previous life. Then Michael asked, if everyone thought Josh had a lot to offer and that it was sad he died so soon - that he offered a lot and could have been famous. He said Josh was saying that maybe it will be a spur to others to move on - give them a boost. I spoke of April 22nd being Earth day (to see if the #22 was a connection to that). Josh relayed a yes. Michael said Josh is very much into symbology and signs and talks like that in his music in fact - that it is kind of mystical. My not really knowing Josh and him coming through was a message of "being outside the box." Josh was explaining we are all like little units - units of the whole. Whatever you can do to bring in light and love, wherever you are in the world, helps higher beings, which helps higher beings and so on. It is like a "Transformer." The laws of Karma are making sure everything runs perfectly, right down to little old you. Michael asked me if there is a Lynn or a Lilly. I don't see that relating to me. I truly think that was Josh trying to communicate his mother's name. I didn't think of this until today, after hearing the tape of my reading. Michael said "He is cool. I like this guy." He said he is a "very gentle guy." Towards the very end, Josh told Michael to tell me I like ice-cream. I love ice-cream. I had just had a dream about buying ice-cream, which Michael said this was a validation of a real dream. I wanted to share this experience since I feel as though this is what Josh would want. This was a spiritual awakening for me. Michael said you have to live in the moment - that a spiritual person does this. He said when he talks about this, it isn't coming from him, but the person or people coming through. He stressed meditation and concentration in order to feel this great love and spiritual connection. The medium's wife sketched a guy with "dred locks" she wrote (which I felt was Josh with his curly hair), a cat (which one of mine just passed away - she asked if it was fluffy white, which she was), the car I drive, and a dolphin. I couldn't figure the dolphin connection, but she said it was maybe a connection to earth day (which is also my b-day). This is the only way I knew how to get this across. Thank you. Kim Date: Sat Jan 29 15:20 Kim (kimbermccoy@yahoo.com): Josh came through on a reading I had a week ago from today. I really did not know Josh at all, but I had seen him perform several times over a course of many years. I didn't have to know him to understand what a great individual and talent is was and still is. I admired him, greatly and needed a spiritual boost in my life. Who would be a more spiritual person to come through in a reading? I met with a psychic medium who offered me much validation as to this being Josh coming through. He said this was Josh's way of "giving a big thank you" to his love ones and that he is over there and fine - that this is a spiritual thing. I will share was was relayed to me for Josh's family and friends. The medium, Michael, asked if there was a person I was hoping would be there. He asked if it was a "J" name, like Joe, John. He asked this person coming through how old he was. The J name person said he is a bit older than 30, but in his thirties. Then Michael asked if the name is Josh. He asked if he was in a small band and that Josh said it wasn't a well known band. Michael asked me if he was ill because Josh said he was ill. Then he asked, "Was this cancer with Josh?" He said he could feel cancer with him. Then he asked if there was a vigil for him - a lighting of candles where everybody got together. Then Michael asked me if he has dark hair because Josh was saying his hair is dark. He asked me if there was another "J" name in the band. Michael said that I couldn't imagine this and that he couldn't come up with these things if Josh weren't standing there. Michael asked if his hair was short, average length. Then he asked if he was a guitarist. Josh said he plays guitar. Then Michael said "He sings he said." "Rock Music." Michael asked me if he is 33. Josh said he was 33 when he died. Michael said this was my validation to the spirit world - that my family arranged this. Michael asked if Josh does "spiritual songs" because Josh said he does spiritual stuff. Josh told Michael I had a picture of him (which I did have in my purse and did not mention until later). Michael asked if he is good looking and before I could speak he said, "He said he is." Michael said there is a fun nature/element to him, a light heartedness. He said there's also a very serious side. Then he was saying something about a Billy or Bill or Bobby, which I can't relate to my family. Michael asked me if there was an album. He said I have his music. He asked if I lived near the beach or ocean, and if I was listening to his music by the beach. I didn't recall this and I don't live by the beach, so maybe this is linked with Josh or someone he knows. He asked if he is fairly tall and lean. He said he is at least 5'11. He asked me if he has whispies on his chin. The medium thought it such a strange request that I asked Josh to come through. Josh brought up the number 21 or 22. Michael asked if I was ever engaged (no). Michael asked, "Does he have a girlfriend." He said maybe the 21 or 22 is a date and it could relate to her - "Maybe he was engaged." He asked if there was a way to get this message to her. Michael said he knows that Josh would like to say hello to his band. Then he said that there is a brother and a sister to him. The medium asked if he was English because Josh was telling him, "Cheers." He said he pictured the Cheers in Boston (and the show, which he never thinks of) and that there could be a Boston connection. I knew that is where Josh was from so I offered that at that point. This is where Michael said this is a big Thank You from Josh to his loved ones. Josh brought up the 21 and 22 again. Then Michael asked about a "B" name like Buzz or Buddy. Date: Wed Jan 19 19:13 Marilyn (marilyn@talkingcloudrecords.com): Dearest Josh, you become more vivid with time. This is something I didn't expect. There are always lovely surprises. Love forever, your Mom. Date: Wed Jan 19 18:59 Laura Baker (laurabaker@earthlink.net): Hi Josh, It's been five years. People came together at your resting place today and it was really magical. You've been an amazing inspiration to many of us. I love you very much. Laura Date: Wed Jan 19 15:16 Elsa (elsa.vigil@bartlit-beck.com): HI sweet Josh, Thinking of you always but more today. You are never far from my thoughts or heart. You're still an inspiration. Miss you dearly. Sending all my love to you, your family and love ones. Shine your light on us, as we all need to feel your love. Love - Elsa Date: Fri Jan 14 11:13 S Pliska (spat@nowhere.com): Heya Josh - been thinking of you a lot lately. I'm getting to see Renee and Leslie here in Portland this weekend, so I'm waxing nostalgic to all my friends and getting them to go. Your circle of friends were always impressive, and I miss hearing that group effort and energy when they'd jump on stage with you. Thank you for sharing the stage so that I could get to know them too. Best always - Sarah Date: Thu Jan 13 14:25 Jennyfer (Thylacine@t-online.de): Hello everybody, I'm a fan of Josh' music and voice since I heard "3 strange days" the first time in a german radio programme in the beginning of the 90's. Thank you Josh that give us so many good and brilliant songs, which help me sometimes very much, especially "Building Atlantis" from "Spririt touches ground". I can't say why, but this two are among the best songs, I ever heard! Thank you for writing them! Date: Wed Jan 12 22:18 Paul Becker (pebecker@gmail.com): Hi Josh, Just thinking about you. Glad to see that INB is back in print - so many folks need to hear it; I'll do my part to spread the word. Paul Date: Fri Dec 31 02:16 Huey (heuyworld@aol.com): Hi Josh (i know), I am listening to you right now singing "king of the dollar" .. my favorite cd album .. i think of you often .. i have my ticket stub from the 90's when i saw you at the Palace in Boston .. i also have the pen that you used to sign an autograph for my buddy Brian after the show .. i was immensely crushed to find you missing when i went looking for you last year .. from this bent corner of the USA, you will live forever in my memories & those i pass on to others of your spirit. Peace, Huey Date: Wed Dec 22 20:46 DarkSock (joeycrain@hotmail.com): I had just discovered School of Fish and then Josh's work; I was saddened to learn of his passing just now, years after the fact, while searching and trying to find more of his music. In looking at these posts it is clear that he is still remembered and cherished. Date: Wed Dec 22 19:48 Eric Reed (skippythefrog@yahoo.com): hi josh! just stopping by! : ) Date: Wed Dec 8 23:11 Lindsay (lindsay_lipton@yahoo.com): Thank you for tonight Josh. Thank you for being with me. I ask for you to come to me every night and you just popped up tonight. I love that. You flew into the garage and went to the light. You flew around until I began to stare at you and then you stopped and starred back. What a beautiful dragonfly you were tonight. I tried to explain it to my friend but it was so meaningful to me that I could not express it to him. I miss you. I love you with all my heart. Thank you and awwww yeahhhhh. Lindsay Date: Fri Dec 3 17:18 Rob (rcdesousa@comcast.net): and if a minute ties me over while i'm falling down a mountain and god is the room and i'm flowting in fountain and the world makes sense for a little while. Date: Wed Nov 24 15:47 just a fan (boo@hotmail.com): It seems to be so long. I miss your voice. Date: Sun Oct 24 20:58 Julianne (JSBWattles@aol.com): Namaste, Josh! Wow, somehow my copy of "Inarticulate Nature Boy" didn't make the move from Boston to the Shenahdoah Valley of Virginia with me, and I've been missing it. I'm so happy to know I can replace it once I jiggle the ol' budget! :o) Peace and love to you and to all Friends of Josh. Date: Thu Oct 21 07:33 Jami Lula (jamilula@earthlink.net): HI Josh, Hello friends of Josh. I still tell the story of "Waving" whenever I sing it during a show. You are missed. I wish you could meeet my son although I think oyu probably have. He picks your CD out of the CD's behind his high chair to listen to while he eats. I see a note from Jeff here and I haven't seen him in a while. I went and saw Renee sing at Hotel Cafe a couple weeks ago she was great as usual. I still can't get through your "Spirit Touches Ground" CD without getting emotional. I am grateful for you and I miss you and it seems like yesterday that you were here in ocean way studios working on the album for the second time I believe. I think it was ocean way. I found a picture of Chad Fisher April you and I at your birthday celebration at the studio. We are on the couch being silly, go figure. Life is good. I am happy you are still remembered so well and so fondly. Life is rich, my son Dylan just walked up and is laughing for no apparent reason. I said "Lets wave at Josh!" he said "Where Josh go?" I said " He's everywhere. " Peace and Blessings, Jami Date: Thu Oct 21 07:22 Jami Lula (jamilula@earthlink.net): HI JOsh, Date: Fri Oct 15 19:58 Scott (ownidaho@aol.com): Josh---Yahooo....Inarticulate Nature Boy is available again....that's the record you were touring for when i met you...geez...has it been that long ago? Anyhow, brought back good memories to see that CD artwork on the site. So after a few years of things being pretty quiet/numb as far as my heart goes, i met someone amazing a few months ago. Smart, funny, goofy, beautiful, talented. We talk a lot about music; he's into opera, and i'm into good pop/rock. I've made him two mixed CDs so far...including Dragonfly and Building Atlantis. Those CDs have been playing in the background a good bit of the time we've been getting to know each other over the past 2 months. Thought it would make you smile to know you're part of something really beautiful that's building..and building...and building. Thanks. love to your mom and family. Scott Date: Mon Oct 4 10:51 Donna (donna@pwilsons.com): Hello Beloved. It has been a while since I chatted with you. The day is bright and clear and the birds are chirpping wildly. It is such a beautiful day. I couldn't help but think of you. I still hold a 13 year crush on you :) You are loved and I feel you in spririt. Love Donna Date: Sun Sep 12 23:10 Dave Mittel (capecod@cox.net): Hey Everyone, My name is Dave and I was an old friend of Josh's. Josh and I went to middle school and high school together in Boston. He and I car-pooled daily from our homes in Brookline to our high school in Weston. Josh was a dear friend, and even back in the early days, I knew of Josh's amazing gifts. Although, we drifted apart after high school, I still tried to follow his career. If anyone knows of Josh's mom's address, I would very much like to email her. Marilyn was a wonderful mom and I remember her fondly. I'd like to extend my sympathy and thoughts to her. Anyway, I'd appreciate if anyone could help me out in this matter. Thanks so much, Dave Mittel Date: Fri Sep 10 19:16 vincent sciaglia (info@3talltrees.com): stumbled on your site couldnt believe it was you amazing how a song so thin comes rushing in with things left far behind thank you, josh -GC Date: Sat Sep 4 02:40 Emily Kearney (s_mle@hotmail.com): I walked into REI today (outdoor stuff store) and 3 Strange Days was playing on the speakers. I hadn't listened to SOF or thought about you in a while. It was very strange to walk around the store and hear you singing - bringing back memories of my teenage years when I first heard SOF. I was really lucky to have gotten to know you in Ojai. I miss you. S&MLE Date: Tue Aug 31 09:48 Jeff (rufhausen@sbcglobal.net): Joshy, Joshy, Josh - for about a year or so I have been unable to submit to this board - some kinda server problem. I CANNOT even imagine what your take - view - action- would be with the current situation in the world. I have been sooooo filled with anger, and all I can think is how much fear a certain person is putting into the world. You, above all literally - know the crippling effect fear has on the human condition. My requests for help from you, my best friend, are large...Sox win World Series, W loses the election, and I am again gainfully employed. Sure, it's a lot, but you can handle it. By the way, I'll take the second request over all others...I love you my choo-choo cherry brother....Jeffy Date: Tue Aug 31 09:33 jeff (rufhausen@sbcglobal.net): Duuuude - I'm back!! Date: Fri Aug 27 21:59 nicky (njcorbett@charter.net): Josh - Thanks for coming through to see me and for sharing some of your wishes with me. I was thinking about that same song, the one you mentioned, and was excited to hear you were thinking about it too. My second boy came a day early at home, in my bed. It was an awesome experience and took every ounce of my soul to push that 10 pounder out into this world! I look at my boys sometimes and am sad that they will never get to meet you. The ot her day I was opening your site and my two year old, Bodhi, when he heard the intro, said "who's t hat?" "That's mommy's friend, Josh," I told him. "Bodhi go see Josh, Bodhi go see Josh." I tried to explain that he couldn't see you and why. He said, "Oh, just go home." And I thought, yeah, Josh is home. I just know you are always nearby and I want you to know how much it means to me that you are always keeping an eye on us. Love and miss you very much. Nic Date: Wed Aug 18 15:40 mp (mark@polansky.net): "While the rest of the world was drowning around us..." miss you - love you my friend. Date: Wed Aug 4 23:37 mika (Teamramrod20@aol.com): josh is and always will be awesome! [IMG]http://maverick.fanpimp.com/tylerhilton/gallery/banners/thbanner_copy3.jpg[/IMG] Date: Tue Aug 3 18:06 Veronica (v25atlaua@hotmail.com): Hey there Josh, I've never written before but I have always felt your presence since one of my best friends introduced you and your music to me. Whenever I'm down or want to feel better I can turn to you. I unfortunately lost touch with this friend who shared you with me and miss him very much. I know you will let him know that I do love him very much and he will always have a special spot in my heart just as you will. Love you Josh & Thank you for all you ever gave me and anyone who is lucky enough to feel you.~ Vern Date: Sun Aug 1 19:42 Bill (BNealon@aol.com): Hey Josh, I heard 3 Strange Days on XM/Lucy this afternoon and it really put a smile on my face. Hope everythings going well, thinking of you. See ya, Bill. Date: Mon Jul 26 15:18 Dene Wilby (dene.w@btinternet.com): We would just like to apologise as it seems that the message board has been inactive for a few weeks. Unfortunately, we don't know what caused the problem but all is well now so feel free to leave a message. Dene Date: Thu May 27 23:03 willie (w_linton99@hotmail.com): im a musician just like you..i hope my music touches as many people as yours has..thanx man Date: Mon May 24 12:40 mp (mark@polansky.net): keep rocking man. thoughts of you always. Date: Wed May 19 08:02 Carol (cjd@impactsearch.com): Happy Earth Birthday Josh! C'mon on that soul! Peace, light, and play- CJD Date: Wed May 19 07:42 eden (edenwillow@yahoo.com): hi josh...yesterday it was all muggy and gross here in NY, but for a minute in the middle of the day this light rain started falling and the sun came out at the same time, and i thought of you. happy (belated) birthday. miss you always, eden Date: Tue May 18 16:59 jamie (heavenlygrrl@hotmail.com): HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET BOY! my thoughts have been with you & your lovely family today...i wish i could have been in l.a. for the benefit show! i've been listening to school of fish alot this past week & thinking about all the fantastic live shows & great memories! so many years have past, it's so amazing that we manage to keep in touch...so amazing and wonderful that josh's music has kept us all together! it has truly been a great gift to have been a part of it all! i wish everyone a wonderful day! appreciate those you love & who love you... :)HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSH!with love,~jamie. Date: Tue May 18 13:00 Jamie (relohome@aol.com): Happy birthday, dearest Josh. Thank you for continuing to illuminate my eyes to the wonders and experiences of this world. Your spirit and smile radiated through the house at the benefit on Saturday! Date: Tue May 18 06:37 Money Penny (carolynp1414@hotmail.com): Happy Birthday Josh! Thank you for your love, spirit and guidance. I am wearing my favorite dragonfly earrings (that Jeffy got me) in your honor today. I love you, my friend. xo Date: Tue May 18 05:19 Tommy (TommyManzi@aol.com): Happy Birthday Josh. I saw a dragonfly over the weekend and couldn't help but wonder if you were sending me a message. As always, I think of you often. Lots of love, TM Date: Tue May 18 00:39 marilyn (marilyn@talkingcloudrecords.com): Happy Birthday, dearest Josh. The Benefit being a little later than usual has me in Los Angeles for your birthday, and this morning Jeff, Chad, Laura and I will celebrate by having pancakes together in one of the places you used to go. A very happy thing to do! Love always, and gratitude always for your love and light, your joy and music, your innocence and wisdom. May they be with me always. Your Mom Date: Tue May 18 00:18 marilyn (marilyn@talkingcloudrecords.com): dear friends and fans- "Inarticulate Nature Boy" has been out of print for more than three years now, and, at last, we've been able to license and re-release it. To celebrate Josh's birthday, CDBaby will start selling the album today. And in the next few weeks we'll be posting three videos of Josh, all from the time he was writing the album, so stay tuned! The Descendants' benefit was amazing, put together with so much work, talent, love, and spirit. Great food, setting, friendship, and music, culminating in the powerful reunion of School of Fish, with Michael, Chad, Dominic and M.P.`performing the new "Goodbye Green World" and the beloved "Three Strange Days" and "Euphoria". The roots of the "invisible tree" deepened and spread. Date: Sat May 8 20:41 scott (ownidaho@aol.com): hi there....thanks, Josh, for a thread of a song that planted itself in my brain a few weeks ago, and coincided with an excellent transition for me. Onward, finally breaking away from a cruddy 2 years of what i like to refer to as my romantic armageddon, something finally broke a few weeks ago while on a trip to new york. The song that kept going through my mind all weekend was "Euphoria"...and the line was "you just can't...no you just can't hurt me...annnymoooorreee...". Over and over. Happiness resulted. Thank you! Keep amazing us. Date: Sat May 1 10:18 Bill (BNealon@aol.com): Hey Josh - just stopped by to say Hi and let you know I was thinking about you. Hope all is well! - Bill Date: Mon Apr 19 22:19 Thea (jinxed4life@sbcglobal.net): Had a dream about you last night... was so nice to see you again. xoxo thea Date: Sun Apr 11 17:50 marilyn (marilyn@talkingcloudmusic.com): It has just been confirmed that the Annual Descendants of the Earth Benefit concert will be on Saturday, May 15, in Los Angeles. So save the date if you can be in L.A., and more information will be coming soon. Surprises and lots of good music will be happening! With love, Marilyn, Josh's Mom Date: Fri Apr 2 07:21 Joshua Taylor (kjswoob@yahoo.com): It's funny how music helps us grow. When I first heard SOF I was in the 8th grade. As a thirteen year old then, I understand now how lucky I was to have that kind of guidance from music. I think I was fourteen when I got my older sister to take me to the Newport to see SOF. That has to be one of the best shows ever, their energy lifted me so high. But, as a 14 year olds life goes I never got to see them again. Then one day as i was looking for old songs on the net I found this site. Sadly I saw the news of Josh. Such a great musical shaman to me, helped me through those terrible teen years with positive tunes, had died. So, i said a prayer to Josh. At a time in my life when nothing was going wrong, but nothing going right either, my world had turned around. I prayed to Josh to give me something in my life to make me happy (a selfish prayer I know). About a month later my girlfriend found out she was pregnant. Now, two years later I'm married to that girlfriend, and i have a beautiful daughter, and another daughter on the way. Thank you Josh for everything, I can't wait to see you in concert again (I hope your still a musician where ever you are).Forever Your Fan,Josh Taylor Date: Thu Apr 1 16:34 Jen (jmhoovervc@aol.com): I first discovered your music as a seventh grader, back in 1991. I bought School of Fish on cassette and walked to my friend's house to play it for her. Her family was moving 60 miles away the next day, and this was the last time we were going to hang out. 13 years later, she is still one of my best friends, although now we are thousands of miles apart, your music has always held us together. I want to thank you for holding my hand to write letters of apology, and being there for hours of laughter and joy. Your music is an enormous part of who I am today, and I think about you often Date: Wed Mar 31 13:16 Carol (carol@fantoo.com): Does anyone know if there will be a Descendants of the Earth concert this April? Hi Josh...a candy colored finch came and sat on my tree this cloudy morning here in Philly. I know the dragonflies aren't far behind...nor the flutterbys...hey, if you have some free time can you work on the soul who's supposed to be coming down? I'm getting a bit impatient! ;-) Love and light, CJD Date: Wed Mar 31 00:15 Kim (kimmyfairy@verizon.net): I was very fortunate to have met Josh at a reunion concert of School of Fish in 1999, I think it was a fundraiser for a Native American cause. My husband's band played along with School of Fish and the reason I went, was to see my husband's band. When I heard "3 Strange Days" it brought back such memories of my 80's days, they just came flooding back. This is one of those songs I always loved but I never found out who did the song! When the song started playing I instantly recognized it and was so happy to finally have figured out who sang this song that I had loved for so long, I can't even explain. Another song they played was "Dragonfly",Josh had commented on stage it was a new song. I instantly connected to this song, I loved it half way through hearing the song for the first time ( I usually have to hear a song a few times at least to like it so much, this does not happen to me very often!) After the band was finished I saw Josh walking around and introduced myself to him and told him how much I loved Dragonfly and he said it would be on his new album. I then started to look in the paper (as I did every weekend to check out music) for the next time Josh was to play. For months I looked and looked and never saw his name listed. I finally was able to check out the website and saw the news about Josh, I was very sad. Even though I did not know him or much of his music I was very sad. At the same time I consider myself so fortunate to have seen the band live on that day that I went to see my husband's band play. I am so very grateful to the friends and family that released the "Spirit Touches Ground" cd and that have kept up this website. I have been able to peek into the life of Josh Clatyton-Felt and what a wonderful human being he will always be. Date: Sat Mar 27 01:12 Regina Conroy (creekmarysgirl@yahoo.com): A thank you to your family and friends for guiding me to the Descendants. It's been a long while since I've been able to be with the community, but hopefully soon I will be able to reconnect with them. Aaay.I feel a bit like a hypocrite writing this. I want so much to believe that there is something else beyond this lifetime. Everyone else seems so sure in one way or another. At best I am not sure, and at my worst, I tell myself that I don't believe any of it anymore. And yet all the while my heart tugs at my conscience begging the question still. Although I steadfastly reject blind faith of any flavor, for all of its historical cruelty, past and present, I find myselfe sitting here writing a note into the void, as if someone might hear me. How does one reconcile these things, armed only with our limited, human-biased experience and a pocketful of ancient, naive questions as yet unanswered to everyone's mutual understanding?In today's intolerant climate, to go so far as to even raise the question invites ridicule, harassment, and violence. If anything, I've come to feel that the idea of immortality, of living forever in a garden paradise may mean something very different than religious texts may have decreed. Perhaps true immortality rests with the living - those caring souls who carry inside them the goodness of one who has touched them and who courageously pass it on to another, and another - and on and on into the future.The garden paradise being that very promise of a future - all because of one person's courage towards another.I wonder.If so, Josh has certainly created a living paradise with his music and his words and deeds - so he is in a way, alive and well today. In everyone who is touched by the music.I thank you for sharing this site with the people, sharing the music and for the connection to spirits touching the ground.- rac Date: Thu Mar 25 10:35 Scott (ownidaho@aol.com): I've been out of touch here for a while, but you and your music (and your mom, too) haven't been out of mind. A lot of stuff's happened, but none of it's happened without your music at some point. First, someone below mentioned i-tunes randomly selecting two songs in a row by Josh (i have several thousand songs in my i-tunes, so i know how rare it is to hear two in a row by the same artist when it's set on 'random shuffle'). My i-tunes/i-pod josh experience is that i'm always happy when there's a long pause between songs on i-tunes/i-pod because it means "Dragonfly" is coming up (that pause is the intro's quiet rain fading in). It does pop up a lot more often than statistics/odds would suggest it should, too. Actually, that and "Sense of Humor" sure come up a lot. Nothing like being at the gym with headphones on, surrounded by people taking their workouts very seriously, and having "Sense of Humor" come on. : )And the person who wrote about Rich Rust (musician/fan from Pittsburgh)-- hey, your cousin was a sweet nice kind guy and touched a lot of people. I helped organize benefit concerts for the AIDS Task Force in Pittsburgh, had Rich always helped out with whatever band he was in at the time. So you're right on in saying he shared traits with Josh. Right right on. Marilyn--not sure if you've heard Alexi Murdoch's "Orange Sky"---but it's beautiful. You'd dig it. (Alexi was on the bill at last year's Descendents concert). Smile, y'all!Scott Date: Fri Mar 19 09:36 Money Penny (carolynp1414@hotmail.com): I love you. xoxo Date: Fri Feb 27 12:56 Thea (jinxed4life@sbcglobal.net): I remember the first time I met you... I begged you to play Euphoria.. You were not thrilled about it.. but you played it for me anyway. It was the most beautiful thing I have ever heard. Miss you so much. Date: Wed Feb 25 13:05 Matthew (hoodooguru_1969@yahoo.com): ==This is a note I wrote my wife, after sadly learning about Josh just today. He was a friend I never met, but knew well through his music...==Got in the truck this morning, and put in one of my favorite CDs that I used to listen to all the time in the early 90’s. It was from a band called School of Fish, and you may well remember one of their hit singles 3 Strange Days. It was one of those songs that instantly connected with me way back when, on many levels, and had that killer guitar lick that I’ve tried in vain to imitate but never could get. It just so happens that the lead guitarist, Michael Ward, moved on following the band's breakup to join up with another band you now know very well— The Wallflowers. But the real spirit behind this song, all the other songs, this album, and this band was a guy named Josh Clayton-Felt. You have never heard of him, and of course, I never met him but he was someone I “seemed” to know as I had researched him, knew his background, and had “followed” his struggling career since my days of being a great fan of his first endeavor, and a wannabe musician myself. I recall “discovering” his first solo album at a record store in California in 1996 when we traveled there for our weekend job-hunting. I remember wanting to buy it, and share with you all about my knowledge and interest in him and his original band. I never did get it, and we never did discuss it as we had other “issues” that came up then (my insensitivity being one… ;^)… but anyway. Since then, I have often thought about him as I thought about my own life & career (at one point wanting to pursue/explore my own musical interests and talent)-- I wondered what kind of life he was leading after having a successful band that broke up and was now chasing success on his own terms. Every once in a while, I would do an internet seach and dig up some new news or facts about what Josh was up to, what new guitar tabs I could download and figure out, what new music he might be creating. But I failed to keep up over the past 3-4 years as we began to create our own wonderful life, building our own memories with our childern, and so I never had the urge to see what memories Josh was creating in his world.Until this morning, after listening to 3 or 4 songs on the drive to work, I had some very strange urge to track down his phone number in L.A. and call him. The typical fantasy conversation I have in my head all the time-- I thought that maybe we would chat, I would tell him how I was a huge fan over the previous decade, and that I would love seeing him hook up with the people from that VH1 Remaking the Band show, getting back together with Michael Ward to reform School of Fish for a show. He always seemed like such a nice guy from the interviews and website stuff I read, so maybe he would be inspired or something…And then… I learned that Josh passed away from cancer over four years ago. It was very sudden, and very tragic. He’s gone.I don’t know why, but this hit me incredibly deeply, as if it was a long lost friend who I never got to say goodbye to. Maybe it made me look my own situation with my Dad's cancer in a different light. I really can’t explain why, but his music, his spirit, his essence just seemed to connect with me starting way back in 1992, and he’s been this “secret friend” I never really had but always seemed to know. And now he’s gone forever.So here I am now, sitting in my office, door closed, lump in my throat, tears in my eyes… and still I cannot explain why.I just wanted to share this moment with you, since you are the one I love most, and the person I want to share my life and my most intimate experiences with. This story about a person I never met has touched me in a way that I cannot truly express, but one that I wanted to share with you. Josh’s music was a part of my life for many years until I met you, and to this day it still connects with me and floods my mind with the memories, feelings, and emotions I had when I was far younger, far simpler, and full of naive dreams of achieving the success like Josh had with his music—but more so with how he moved the world around him.So, I would like for you to learn more about Josh, and share his life's experience with you. Go to his website video section, click on the DSL/cable link, and then click on the far right link to the Good Morning America video. It’s pretty inspiring, and makes you realize how one person’s spirit can touch and move so many around him. I know he touched me… Date: Mon Jan 26 06:56 M. Polansky (mark@polansky.net): JCF my itunes jukebox randomly selected two of your songs consecutively this morning. Thank you for giving me a chill and the flow of great sounds. Stay warm man. Date: Wed Jan 21 10:15 Dan (flaremberts@650dialup.com): I am writing again to tell the story of one of Josh's fans...Rich Rust. Rich was with me the night I talked about in my message posted here on Oct. 22nd. He was also 32 when he died of cancer as well on Janurary 13th of this year. He was also a musician and a great person. In fact, it is haunting to see how much was the same. Rich is my cousin and I hope that he is now in heaven playing with Josh (at least this is what I imagine is happening to put my mind at ease). For those interested, you can read more about Rich at richrust.com. Date: Tue Jan 20 09:23 Money Penny (carolynp1414@hotmail.com): I awoke very early and burned some sage for you yesterday, just as you showed me. Jeffy threw tobacco in the fire for me, so in a way, I was at the sweat as well. Thank you for your continued guidance and love. Your spirit and wisdom continue to inspire me. I love you, MP xoxo Date: Tue Jan 20 06:58 eden (edenwillow@yahoo.com): hi josh...thinking of you yesterday and alwayslove, eden Date: Mon Jan 19 15:59 TOMMY (TommyManzi@aol.com): I am here Joshua. Thinking of you. Wishing you love and peace. Thank you for the many wonderful things you've brought to my life. Much love, TOMMY Date: Mon Jan 19 15:30 Carol Doroba (cjd@impactsearch.com): Josh- On this anniversary of your flight to higher ground, I am thankful to have come to know you. I am thankful for your music which continues to dazzle me and is the catalyst for heart-full meditation on the gifts of life, even with all it's "opportunities" ("challenges" on a day when I am cranky.). And I am happy that you shine so bright we could never lose sight of you.Marilyn, your selfless nature has made it possible for us to never feel apart from Josh and his joyous, enlightened energy. In thanks I send loving energy.Peace and light, Carol Date: Mon Jan 19 11:47 Elsa (elsa.vigil@bartlit-beck.com): P.S.Fly me up to where you areBeyond the distant starI wish upon tonight to see you smileIf only for a while, to know you're thereA breath away's not farTo where you are Date: Mon Jan 19 11:40 Elsa (elsa.vigil@bartlit-beck.com): Hello sweet Josh: I miss you. You are in my prayer today. The hardest part is that I miss hearing new music from you. Till this day, my School of Fish/Josh collection is bigger than any artist I admire. May your spirit continue to glow in our hearts. I will love you always. Thanks for being my angel.Marilyn: My love to you on this day. You and Josh will always hold a place in my heart. Thank you for your love, support and for being such a wonderful person to all the fans. Peace, Elsa Date: Fri Jan 16 18:15 marilyn (talkingcloudrecords.com): Monday, January 19, is the fourth anniversary of Josh's passing, and at sunrise Descendants of the Earth will hold the fourth of four Honor Memorial Sweat Ceremonies. Friends can join in their hearts and thoughts with with a prayer of thanks to God for the joy of his gifts. Burn some sage as Josh would to sanctify the space. If friends say a prayer at dawn wherever they are the prayer will travel around the globe as the sun rises, welcome warmth and light in this deep winter. Love and peace, Marilyn, Josh's Mom Date: Wed Dec 24 09:18 Shay Giambastiani (shay.giambastiani@unistudios.com): Josh,It's been awhile since we've chatted, so I could really use a visit from you tonight. My little cousin Joey was taken away from this world this morning. Such a great kid, and such a positive spirit. At the age of 18... it's just not right...Please Josh, welcome him into your world and let him know that everything is okay. Maybe sing him a little song for me? I think "Too Cool For This World" would be perfect......I miss you Josh. Take care of my little cuz...With all the love from the Diamonds in my Heart....Shay Date: Sat Dec 20 04:15 Well (well_au@yahoo.com): I am a new fans of josh.^_______^I love your music,hope you know this!although you are in a peaceful and safety place!~ Date: Fri Dec 12 09:37 Tim (tim_bolesta@hotmail.com): I listened to Human Cannonball on the way to work today. That album never got the respect it deserves. It's one of the best CDs I own! Date: Fri Nov 28 21:57 nicky (njcorbett@earthlink.net): happy thanksgiving joshie. i've enjoyed your visits lately. the baby is due in march and is another boy! imagine that - me, with two boys!! miss you a lot. see you in my dreams and otherwheres.love,nic Date: Thu Nov 27 18:42 Andrew (nuttlogic@aol.com): I was in Hollywood earlier in the week for a Living Colour show and ran across the Center of Six disc at ameoba records...I have most of Josh's solo work, but this one truly reflects the path his music was taking--I'm in awe and listened to it a few times over on my trip up Interstate 5 on my way back home--I keep my fingers crossed that there will be future releases of anything from the vault--beautiful music. Date: Thu Nov 20 15:10 Rich (gaadzoox@earthlink.net): I saw Josh open for Tori Amos in Baltimore many years ago. That night I was hooked on every word he sang and every note he played. I am just learning of his passing and I am deeply saddened. His songs will be with me always. Date: Thu Oct 30 10:25 John (Ferdie Fuzz@aol.com): (OT) Glen Phillips Just wondered if any of you have ever heard of Glen Phillips ?He used to be with "Toad the Wet Sprocket. " He has an awesome new CD out called "Live at Largo." You can check it out @ www.glenphillips.com or www.awarestore.com Thanks! Date: Thu Oct 30 09:19 mp (mark@polansky.net): My Friend Josh, please welcome Elliot Smith into heaven. On a perfect Fall morning such as this one I can feel the music you are are creating for us still. Date: Wed Oct 22 08:48 Dan Rembert (flaremberts@650dialup.com): I am a big fan from SOF all the way thru. I had the chance to introduce myself to Josh at a show were he opened up for Del Amitri. There was a bad storm that night in Pittsburgh, so only a hand-full of people showed up and the bands were even taking requests from the audience. Josh walked by after his set and I got cold feet and didn't say hi to one of my musical heroes. Now it is too late. Thanks for the music, Josh. Sorry I didn't extend my hand. Date: Mon Oct 20 06:50 Money Penny (carolynp1414@hotmail.com): Hi Joshy, thank you for your visit last night. Recalling your strength and spirit has really kept me going these past few weeks. I know you are with me. Thank you for that. I love you, Money Penny xo Date: Fri Oct 10 14:53 Joe Walters (josewalters@earthlink.net): Josh I still think of you everyday and I feel you in my heart. I know that things are well for you... so many of us miss you so and we will see you one bright day. I want for you to hear this song I sing for you..http://artists.mp3s.com/artist_song/3416/3416251.html I love you and will see you in a Sunrise in Memphis. Date: Fri Oct 10 09:26 Jeff Gabriel (taotehjeff@hotmail.com): I saw Josh open for Tori many years ago. He played a solo version of A Day in the Life. It was the single best live song I have ever seen performed. I'll never forget it and would love to hear it again. He was a true talent. When I heard that he passed I cried on several occassions after hearing his music.RIP Josh. Date: Sat Oct 4 11:01 Mika (Teamramrod20@aol.com): A local cd store was going out of business and Cds were really cheap so for some reason I bought Josh clayton Spirits Touches Ground. It has not left my cd player since! When I went to look for more info about him, it was to my great disforturne to find out he had pasted away. Josh was an amazing musican and I only wish I could have seen him live. His CD is soooo great! Date: Sat Oct 4 04:48 Nigel (Nygie@bigfoot.com): It may not be my place to post this comment, but Dene just may be a bit busy to get round to it at the mo!On Friday the third day of October 2003 at approximately 14:40 GMT. Joshua's good friend Dene Wilby and his wife Jo was blessed with a healthy baby boy, which they have named Joshua. Respect! Date: Mon Sep 22 22:18 Anthony (doublespeak@comcast.net): Paint the tree green! Date: Tue Sep 16 18:19 Jerry (elektraluxe@hotmail.com): After searching through my cds tonight, I came across my copy of Human Cannonball. I remember being a bit disappointed when it first came out - I was such a big fan of the first SOF album, the new direction of Human Cannonball came as a bit of a shock to me. I liked it, but I think at the time, I just wasn't ready to appreciate it. About a month ago, out of nowhere, I started thinking about the song "Take Me Anywhere". Slowly, my need to hear it again got bigger, until finally, I just had to dig for it. Spinning it tonight, I am completely blown away by this record. I realize it's 10 years old, but some of the songs on here ("Take Me Anywhere", "1/2 A Believer", "Everyword") are nothing short of perfect pop songs. As a musician, I have been inspired by Josh's music for over a decade now. Losing him at such a young age is such a shame - but he left us with fantastic music. Sorry for the novel, I just felt like sharing this. Date: Fri Sep 12 14:04 Andrea Gabriel (agabby@msn.com): I only got the opportunity to meet you a few times but your music will live on in me. Your poetry consistently moves me. Thank you Josh for all you've given us. Date: Mon Aug 25 22:14 Henry (Felt@feltco.com): Dear Josh, here we are at Post Camp. A group of kids arrived from Lynn's school and they remember you from several years ago, particularly the song Kid on the Train. They said you were the coolest person here-- you really talked to them. They also wanted to know how to get a CD so I will direct them to this website.Sally and I showed them the Totem Pole. They were full of awe. It's so fantastic. When I wake up in the morning it's the first thing I see when I raise my head, I don't even need to go outside to see it.Violets Forever!Henry & Sally Date: Sun Aug 24 02:10 marilyn (marilyn@talkingcloudrecords.com): Responding to Dave's question - I don't believe the School of Fish reunion show was recorded. But as for releasing more School Of Fish music, we've discovered some wonderful early SOF demos and we hope to include them in a new album for next year's Descendants of the Earth benefit. Just keep letting us know you're interested! Date: Tue Aug 19 21:08 Dave (ddonahue@brasherlaw.com): Hello - Have been listeing to Center of Six at the office and smiling to myself at the good vibe that the sounds create. We are fortunate to share that experience. While browsing the site, I was intrigued by the photographs of the School Of Fish reunion performance! Any chance that Talking Cloud might release those songs? I am quite hungry for all things Josh. Thank you! Date: Thu Aug 14 17:25 Donna (donna@pwilsons.com): "I want to change the way the world affects me... I want to dance in the face of all that could be... I....... Josh,... News of your passing hit me to my very core. I did't know you had such an effect on my soul. Late last night I downloaded the song Three Strange Days. This was before I visited your site today and learned of your passing.I have always thought of you intermittently throughout the years.I remember catching you at a very intimate gig at Rutgers University in 1991. It was my freshman year. I helped put on the show at Livingston College and you were so humble and respectful. I was right in the front row digging your lyrics like there was no tomorrow. Mind you I was the only black female in the room, but to me, music has no boundries. It should be that way to everyone. Especially those that listen to your music. I didn't feel ashamed to be in the room... I then took your music to share with some friends at Boston University. They couldn't help but like a brutha. I moved on from college and became the mother of two boys Daniel and Jordan. Through the years you always came back to mind... It's like I come full circle. I remember a part of Three Strange Days that I played over and over again... "I've got to make it through, no matter what it takes... I've got to make it through these strange days... YeahYou were a man before your time... the world wasn't ready for you. You were taken from us so early --- But isn't it said that only the good die young?An Angel you are. You brought me through some tough times and may God bles you for that. You had such a deep effect on people and I am sure you didn't even know it. God used you in such a way that it will continue to blow the minds of of those you made contact with for many years to come. You cross all barriers, even in death. I love you beloved. Your my light and I will forever think of you.People... God and the use of music and truly bring us together. Let it ride...Donna - Rutgers University 91' School Of Fish rocked New Brunswick! Date: Wed Aug 13 09:56 Joshua A Clayton (CLAYTN@hotmail.com): Hi very sorry to hear about your passing you have my sincere condolences Date: Tue Aug 12 17:26 joe (joe@windpointsolutions.com): I found out about Josh's passing away about a month ago. I couldn't believe it. I was such a big fan of School of fish. Here in Spring, Texas you don't find a lot of people who have ever heard of them, but a friend turned me on to them when "3 strange days" was released. What a great album. Speechless is my favorite song on that album. His lyrics were so genuine. I used to be in a band called Twenty Mondays and School of Fish opened for crowded House in Houston years ago. Our band really wanted to go to the show so our manager some how rigged it that we could go but we would have to help the sound and light crew. My job was to run a spot light on Josh. Afterward we met them, had some pictures taken with them and just got to spend some time talking to them about the road and how they are enjoying it. It was a very cool night. Unfortunately, the photos of the night are somewhere with our ex-manager. It is one of those things in life that you feel real lucky to have been a part of.